HOJIAMINberlin (:

2007-06-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm living in Livejournal now!

But i'll still post back here in Blogger from time to time.

http://hardcoreloves.livejournal.com/

relink me if possible. Thanks!

Haha! Anyone with LJ account please add me as your friend. I'm lonely ):

♥♥♥

2007-06-20T13:55:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: HIGH x TEN ]

hello, please ignored that pic. Thanks!

i'm hesitating to move to LJ!

There's somethingwrong with my blogger.

To shift/ Not to shift. I'll decide some other days.

& Shawn, if you are reading this. Can't meet you today!! I don't know why i just can't msg you! Service problem i guess. Sorry sorry!

yesterday

yesterday was a GREAT day. (:

We (love, joel, bert, Gab, yong sheng, Damian, me) went out to celebrate Love birthday. Love's bro tag along wit us. (:

As usual, we met at westmall mac first.
i'm the earliest! (yay yay!)
Gab was late. Very late ok!!! xD
we waited for 1 hours plus plsu for Gabriel's arrival.

Oh yes oh yes! Yong sheng picked up a kitten from panjang area and he brought it all the way to east coast and bring it back again. Damn funny luh. He treat the kitten like his baby like that, even brought milk, fish burger for the kitten to eat. The kitten is so blessed. (:

We took freaking long time to decide where to go. In the end, we went East Coast after that to cycle. Don't know who bluff me go fly kite one hor?

cab-ed down to east coast.

Love, Joel and me. We 3 have the =.=" look cause we were wearing jeans and they wan to go cycling.

joel, bert and yong sheng took skates. Actually love and me also wanted to skate but don't have our sizes. =.=" so end up we took bicycle.

Yong sheng anyhow cope ppl trolley and put the kitten inside. All of us dump our bags and shoes inside. The poor kitten!!!

I can't cycle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ): i cycled for like 100m ony and i have blisters all over and i'm damn tired. Joel can't skate and he keep falling down. I tried not to laugh, but can't. heh! Luckily he skate slowly, if not everyone will be like waiting for me.

Love cycled me for the first half of the journey while bert cycled me for the 2nd half. (: so sweet right? both of them. HAH. I'm bet i must be very heavy. ):

Love cycled me that time we keep hitting and banging into things. The funniest part is when he cycled all the way to the grasses than we keep screaming and shouting cause love cant see the route as my hair blocked her view. I keep screaming non stop cause i cant what's happening while she cant really see it. People at the chalet beside us keep staring at us, giving us the !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! look. We were like damn embarrased abt it..

lalalas. We stop and rest at the food court.

2nd half of the journey was much more stable. Just that we keep waiting for yong sheng and the trolley.

thnks fe te mmrs, Thnks fe te mmrs.

blah blah blah. return of bicycles and so.

after dinner we went to play pool.

Gabriel and i cheated! xD
DAMIAN!!!! Humph! He bluff me that using the back of the stick play better. Like wheni use he was like, "wth, what you doing? Everyone staring at you leh!" !!!!!
Lovelove kinda good at pool, not like damian, so weak, a weaklink! xD

Reached home, bath-ed, fall asleep. Damn tired.

well, meeting swee boon tmr?

2007-06-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, i'm berlin. :D
I'm no angel but i can make you smile. :D

- cannot resist the temptation of using com. ):
- PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Benjamin knows why.
xD
- Make me the happiest girl that ever lived. (:

well, i know life on earth is a test, a trust, a temporary assignment. Measured against eternity, your time on earth is just a blink of an eye, but the consequences will last forever. God wants us to pass the tests of life so he would never allow them to be greater than the grace he gives us to handle them. If i cant even pass this, how can i even be God’s soldier after all? But than, I SERIOUSLY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. ): DNT!!!!!!! SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS! I just feel like vomiting blood after knowning how much more need to be done! Whatever, I’m still holding on. Not hanging on. I still have life in me. I am still who i am.

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright. Went to wee teck's blog my ouch and i'm laughing to myself like some idiotic asshole. WHY?? I wanted to know why too. Eh. Guess i'm just happy cause i found my pri sch fren's blog. Maybe. -.-" And i love the bounce bounce thingy on his blog. SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :D I love it so much that i can bear t leave his blog. heh! (^.^)V

I'm proud that i've the power to laugh automatically. WAHAHAHAHS!

^_^V

Todayyy!

They supposed to help me and love take pics end up they take pics for themselves. And they took ugly pics for us!

see what i mean? The pic is like so blur and awful!

woke up at around 10 today.
Supposed to meet kys, gad and love around 12.
Met love at mac and had lunch before we go to sch. I'm the earliest alright! Like so rare. {: Gabriel joined us for lunch while kys can't make it. People wake up at 12 one leh. xD Call him untill very pek cek.But fun leh. keep calling and calling! LOL. I understand how brenden feels when he call me in the morning and i can't wake up. Sure feeling damn fastruated.

lalalalalalas. We were late. They say meet at 1.30pm went that thingy start at 2pm. So it wasnt really our fault when we reached sch at 1.45pm. We are still early and there are many more who are later than us. LOL! Rushed down to school. Don't know who suggested to take cab from westmall to school. xD Met vic & Co and the bus. Victor shouted my name so loudly alright & i shouted his name back. LOL!

Went back to school for some fire drills thingy. I think they've got more than enough ppl already. Just don't know why they still need the help of the SL. Nvm, help others won't die. Won't elobrate more abt the drills cause i'm not really in the blogging mood. I just felt very pity and sorry for the old man i attended to just now and i hate rainny days.

Gabriel daddy fetch us to westmall. [: It's has been long since we sat on a lorry. (: KYS gave up on holding the umbrella cause it is very troublsome and it was very windy and the umbrella seems to be "flying" away.

Love went off first. KYS and me got bubble tea. LOL! Is like every week we will have one cup of it. -.-"

had the most awful dinner. YUCKS! All the food are too spicy and i cant eat spicy food. ):

since ............................................................................................................................................. ..................................................................................................
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& you know i will never go there again!

MOVE ON.

DON'T CRY

CHIN UP, SMILE.

to qiupeng: yeah HI. (: . hahas. miss you too. so long never see you already. Takecare yea? and enjoy your holidays. {:

to C Y Q: hello. chan yi quan? hahas. yupx. yes yes. man utd is the club. [: HAHAHA! keep smiling yea? Stay happy. xD

to shawn: RAHH! :P My bro ate laksa today. LOLS.

to bloghopper: Around 10? hahas. anw, who are you and do i know you?? (:

2007-06-13T15:50:00.000+08:00

I'M EATING ICE CREAM RIGHT NOW! :D

I'm just very glad that i've completed my artefact and i don't have to go back to school today. Good Luck and all the best to those that need to go back and have a nice day! :D Desmond! All the best yea? Mus quickly buck up and enjoy. xp

Guess i'm going to rot at home today. Tmr will be worst as bro will going out. T_T
*cries**

Love had gone to malaysia already and will only be back on friday! ): I'm gonna miss her. !!! Enjoy and have a safe trip. I'll pray for you and rmb to miss me like hell.. :D

"life is short?"

Ain't Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does? What can you do that's longer? Life is boring. Life's long. I wished i could die. But i don't want to spent my last day studying. ):

I want to eat fries and chips badly. But it is kinda fattening. Aww..

Kinda random. :D

2007-06-12T17:28:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: YAYY! Many many **claps** ]

I had finally finished my DNT artefact!!!!!!!
*clapping happily**
After 5 days i had finally completed. :D
Still have folio need to do. ): Folio weighs more.

Brenden called me super early today. Hah! Reached school slightly late. Not too late, Around 10 mins late only. Met love, she's late too. It's so coincidence that both our buses reached the bus stop at the same time. :D Marcus was there too. So we 3 went to school tgt and we were discussing that kys sure later than us. But in the end, he's 5 mins earier. LOLS!

Talking to some ass can make you vomit serverly. Went Lot 1 to had our lunch. Finally we are free from westmall. LOL. Joel joined us for lunch. :D Love is blessed. (: We took a long time to decide our eating place. On the way back to sch, i almost tripped and fall. Kys got a shocked and we both laughed badly cause it reminds us of how marcus act cool and slide off the stairs and fell. :D

After lunch, went back to sch. Chatted with curry rice. He's actually quite nice luh. Told him a long story of why i cried and he keep asking to me forget abt it and don't think too much. :D He also told me the story of how he had become so thick skinned and abt the people in his class. Damn interesting. He even said that as time passed, he had 2 layers of skin instead of one, so went ppl insult him or so, it's only like a mosquito bite to him only. A piece of cake. hah! Interesting right?! I know. :D

To bloghopper: Hey. Thanks for helping me reply. LOL. :D
To Qiyin: Hey hello. (: Alright. Will link you ASAP! :D Byebye.
To vv: Hi. Yeah. Thanks for telling me. Corrected it already. :D Oh well, it's your choice. You can choose not to agree with it. Anw, thanks for your comment and take care. (:

For now, it is all deep and meaningless. No point arguing you know.

2007-06-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

In love with love Y.

Wow. How true of human. How true of us.
but i was wondering: we fall in love with love so much, wanting it, receiving it.

but have we ever given love?
love to the guy at the coner, the one crying out, the one that keeps failing, to the weirdo in class, and the broken and bitter guy that keep everything to himself in this world, the guy that everyone calls weird.

do we?

Today

Hello, i still haven finish my artefact alright. I don't know how to lacquer. D: So, i need to go back tmr again just to lacquer the bloody wood. Aww... I know that curry rice well help me lacquer one tough he keep saying NO! hahas. Friday he also said no, than just now i had watery eyes cause i can't finsh he immediately help me lacquer. People soft hearted one leh. Damn funny. Glenn keep saying that he bully and make me cry. LOL!

Brenden gave me a morning call today but i'm still late. WHY!!??!!

Love didn't come today. She was sick. ): GET WELL SOON! Actually Gab and i wanted to go visit her but end up we are hold down by too many things so end up didn't go.

Curry rice really treat me ice cream luh, nice hur? though Brenden chip in half of the cost. I also nice alright. Wanted to treat him a bowl of 30 cents plain rice but he don't one. Hello? It's the thoughts that counts. HAHAHAHA! Brenden, you are nice too! :D

I bought 4 bottles of sunkist orange juice. People must be thinking I'm suffering from dehydration. I'm not alright, just that super thirsty and hungry. AND it is much cheaper to get 2 bottles at one go. Sunkist is good, as it's fat free and filled with vitamins.

Vitamins A, C and E! If not wrong.

It's a healthy choice and it make one goes HIGH!~ :D

I'm like doing promoting. LOL!

To bloghopper: HAH! I think you are like damn cute. You don't know what's going on and you still can tag and comment! :D LOLS! Well, Less than 10 ppl from the class come to sch against 40. What do you think? Not out numbered? Oh well, HAH!

Labels: Am still very much in love.

2007-06-10T14:42:00.000+08:00

I AM SO HAPPY NOW. SUPREME HIGHNESS!
THOUGH I HAVENT TOUCH A SINGLE BIT OF MY DNT FOILIO. NVM, I'M STILL FEELING HAPPY.
& only i know whyyyyyy.

Laughs, Laughs, Laughs! :D
I think that's some problem with me. I had watched scary movie 4 for numerous time and i still can laugh like nobody business everytime i watch it! Damn entertaining alright :D
Blogging is boring, yet i'm doing it. I'm bored, that's why. (:

Quick Shopping
Yes yes! Quick shopping, i had been doing it recently. Don't really have the time to do proper shopping. ): and i had a pair of killer heels! It cause all the stupid blisters on my toes and ankle. Lousy heels. ): BOOS!

Bitch?!
Oh yeah. Bitch? If calling me that can make you happy than carry on than. It's your mouth. I can't stop it. Whatever you wan to say just go on. You ain't hurting me in this form and you could never hurt me. Since when i tell others that you say i flirt? Please don't put words into my mouth. For your info, It takes a bitch to know a bitch. If having a cold war makes you happy, let's have cold one till the end than. Feeling unhappy already?? You could just stop reading now, simply click the "x" on the top right hand coner and leave my blog. Re-read my post again. Like hello, i apologize for being a lousy friend alright not apologize for my wrong doingings. And why should i apologize when i did nothing wrong? Is you the one that choose to gave up our more than one year plus friendship, not me. Please get matter right before you want to bitch abt others alright.

Want me to reflect? Reflecting than.
Things that run throught my mind are all these:

Why mus i be there for you when you weren't there for me in the first place?

I apologize for my attitude alright. like that also your problem?

Since when did i blame you all?
You think only you know how to forgive and forget? Since you forgiveness is like so GREAT, save it than. I don't need it them.

Have you ever being a good friend?

Have you ever thought of the reasons why i ignored you all?

Is like what have i done? Can't i have friends from other classes? Having other friends from other classes ur problem?
I help e5 in some of the games that day cause they are out numbered alright. Some more most of my friends are in e5, can't i be there with them? Upon seeing e4 playing against them i stop helping them alright right? If not i would have joined. Yeah. This is call betraying own class hur.
And please make things clear before you wan to say or complain abt anything! I didn't complain to e5 abt you guys alright. You want gossip and complain abt me for all i care. Write in your blog and complain than. Just conitinue since it makes you happy. I won't do the same to you all. i guess you all know it that i'm not that kind that will seek revenge or so, because true love never dies. Love for friends, Love for even enemies, or "enemies".
All these can only prove our friendship is weak. Very weak.
A ture friend stab you from the front, not from the back.

LOVE! I seriously need to talk to you ):

Labels: A part of me is shattered. So much of me in smithereens

2007-06-09T16:33:00.000+08:00

I AIN'T "KIK" OR "FU ** ***" ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M BERLIN. :D

shawn: lalalalala~ stop calling me FU ** *** or i share around your nick. Care and share yea?? HAH!

jeremy nicholas: Hello JIK! :D

I need to be more friendly from now on! JIK said that i'm not friendly enough. Thus, i shall Wave Madly and Smile Widely whenever i see him in school or so.

I need to start planning schedule for revision. TIME FOR REVISION!
Anyone that want go out study contact me please. I can't study at home. Too much distraction.
My phone ain't vibrating/ringing as much as usual.

I need cash. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feeling the joy that others experienced will definately make one happy too. (: I'm afraid of loneliness. So don't leave me all alone.

Don't Leave Me

You're sweet just like the sun
But what happens when the sun doesn't stay?
The night reminds me when you went away
Now my mind was pacing, heart is racing contemplating things that I lack
Even though you left me by myself, do I want you back?

Will you stay or will you walk?
will you let go?
Leave me all alone
I'm giving you one more chance
To make things last
Ring around the roses then she'll stay

Leave me once
Leave me twice
Kiss good-bye that will suffice
When you go away
Don't look back
Leave me once and i'll be fine
Leave me twice i'll make you mine
Just one more chance to make it once again

As the days go by, I am asking why did you leave
You left me alone and then you walked out on me
Thinking of days, thinking of ways, thhinking of things that I should say
I wanna be with you and that's the only way

Don't say good-bye, just dry your eyes
A tear for everything that I did wrong
Don't say goodbye, just dry your eyes
Listen now just try and see me please don't leave me now.

Labels: Don't leave me music by The All-American reject.

2007-06-09T01:16:00.000+08:00

The time now is 1 plus and i'm still awake. Shall blog abt yesterday. (:

Yesterday
Random (:

1. Woke up at 8.35 when i'm supposed to reached sch for DNT at 8.45. I need someone to give me morning calls. HAH!
2. Went off after lunch and didn't come back for dnt. Went causeway w love and kys instead. Gab joined us ltr on cause he's sick. (Gab! fake one right? i know :P)
3. Ate only ONE meal today - lunch. As a result, i'm like starving now. Got so high while eating and Gab was like saying i contolled very long already cause of DNT, so now i need to let it all out. LOLS.
4. Curry rice owned me an ice-cream. *claps happily** Actually he was force to but nvm, still clapping very happily. : D
5. All of the sudden, i hav sore eyes, i don't know why. Save me please. It's damn itchy ):
6. Some disgusting freak is really disgusting. Yucks! Love know why. I'm already had such a bad impression of him already now worst. *vomit blood* I think you all should stay away from him for he would influence you greatly. So....
7. Laughed a lot today. Got a little hyperventillation and i cooled down, preventing myself from laughing too hardly. Incase i faint. Was totally insane and crazy. :D
8. Men in white. Damn nonsense luh the movie. But funny. KYS sitting beside me, keep disturbing LOVE and me. lik wth? And you now what, before the moive started, i screamed damn loud luh. Cause i got a shocked. And, oh yes, there a girl that sat on the bread which belongs to KYS. Gab threw it 2 seats beside his seat. LOLS. lalalalala~~ They seriously never fail t brighten up my day. KYS = gong gong. The movie end already he was like telling us, "eye 10 got kok kok kok, this one got ICE CREAM" hahas.
9. and oh yes, CURRY RICE FRIEND IS LASKA. RIGHT SHAWN?? HAHAHS!
10. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GARY. 4th time i'm saying this alright. So proud of myself for giving you so much blessings. HAHA!
11. LOVE, i love you. {:
12. And, all these can only prove that our friendship is weak. VERY VERY WEAK!
13. BERLIN LOVE TO LAUGH AND EAT!!!!

2007-06-07T18:14:00.000+08:00

Happy + Sad = L-i-f-e.
redundant.

Today
Woke up late today. Luckily love they all change the meeting place and timing. HAHA! and i only saw the msg when i boarded the bus. O.o was expecting to be the first to reached and was shocked when i saw Gab! He's earlier than me. Yong sheng came not long after my arrival. Love was late! very late. =PpP

DNT
Like yesterday, i had quite a great time in school today. Laughed alot, must be the excessive self entertainment. I do realise I talk too much. Hmmm, thought i could have finish up my artefact today but end up asdfghjkl. Thanks to that curry rice, keep talking to me while i'm concentrating. He also thought he would have finsined. He blamed me and i blamed him back. Is like what's the point of blaming each other now? We just have to go back to sch tmr to complete our artefact. aww. ): Iris damn funny. Keep nagging at us, asking us to do and stop talking. Hah! Right iris??

Curry rice: Keep saying my brain fresh. At least mine so much better than yours. You use your brain already still so stupid. I never use the ability like yours already. If my brain activate, damn powerful one.
Me: No lorx. Different. Yours can put inside musuem one. Not like mine.
Curry rice: Don't worry. I will pull you along. Will help you write some recomandation letter. I'm sure the manager sure will accept you.

*concentrate** *concentrate**

After a while,

Me: Wah. damn tired leh. keep sanding.
curry rice: Aiyo. Why you talked? Just now never talked like damn peaceful. You now talked spoilt your image sia. Just now look so nice when focusing.
Me: -.- Talk your problem huh? Do your work luh.
Curry rice: Want to exchange a not. You sand mine and i sand yours. See the wood grains keep going into your eyes.
Me: You trust me arh? Thought someone say that i very V.
Curry rice: Yeah lorx. Better not. I'm worrying for my artefact.
Me: -.-

If i have a knief we me. I would have killed him. He's freaking damn lame.

Home
Tiong yee send me home after dnt. He said that it's on his way. Lalalas~ So, i have 12743865907650889371 stuff to do. Alright, reached home, bathed, com-ed, and now off to dinner. I'm hungry. Eating is blessings.. :D

qiupeng:) : Well, yeah but nothing to happy about. I still have DNT coursework thingy.
Simin: Haha. O.o But after awhile many people left. HAH! Oh see how ok? Contact you again. Cause not sure tmr can finished that dumb artefact a not. Dumb and stupid artefact. Well, tmr we mus chiong to do finsih the artefact. Heard last day sia. WTH!
Indra: alright :D
Des: Hah! alright. Pm me when you online. (:

Labels: absolutely humour deprived.

2007-06-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

There's nothing to celebrate about. I'm still need to go back to school for dnt coursework. ): Smiles and Laughters definately brighten up ones day. :D

Slience
shhhh...... LISTEN TO THE SLIENCE! Simply beautiful isn't it? The sincerity of it all leaves you pondering, just thinking. :D peace baby. yeah!

Breakfast
Met love, gab and kys at westmall mac in the morning for breakfast. Alister was thr too. well, i'm late. ): Everyone is like waiting for my arrival so that they can order food. I had hotcakes while the rest of them hav sausage muffins. hah! Love and i are nice souls. We waited for all of them to order their food before we eat. Actually we ate a few mouths of harshbrown. But nvm, we are still nice.

DNT
We were just nice for the dnt test. :D The moment we reached, the test started. The design studio was totally packed, filled with ppl. Luckily we still managed to get a seat. :D The test was the same paper as mid year. Despite that, i doubt that i will still be failing the paper. This can only prove that i don't learn from my mistakes. hah! But i'm sure i will get more than 25 marks. -.-" Some how, it aint as bad as i imagined. Had so much laughter today especially when arguing with that "curry rice" guy. The way glenn suan him is like so damn cool. Someday i would learn from him.

Me: Aren't you the one that cut my que?
Curry rice: Me? i don't rmb cutting your que.
Glenn: Waaa. so not gentleman leh you. Cut girl's que.
Me: hanor. So not gentle man leh you. Curry rice. hah!
Curry rice: Ok lorx. Think you too short so i didn't realised you. Aiyah. At most next time i treat you eat luh. A bowl of rice only horx. Don't think too much.
Me: =.="

Ok. They are lame. Don't know why today whenever i walked pass someone artefact, the artefact will fall. Walked passed Iris artefact and the block of wood dropped. Glenn & Co. , including curry rice (like duh), keep repeating "orh hor, orh hor, you die. I'm going to tell Iris." They said so loudly. Hello! Only a block of wood dropped right? No big deal! Love, gad and kys all so buzy with their stuff and i'm super free cause i've completed my artefact. But than i forgotten to bring my twine to school. Tiong yee so nice luh. Keep entertaining me. (thanks huh) Haa. He keep asking me go disturb curry rice, don't disturb him. LOL! Upon hearing that i'm from e4, curry rice was like, " You e4 one meh? Bet you will retain one more year." So wthhh.

while packing up and cleaning the workshop, curry rice saw me helping kys and he said, " wah. you know how to help ppl one arh? thought you only know how to opened your mouth and talked." so LOL. *faint**

Lunch
Lunch was pretty funny. The way we all start running away, the way we hide at behind the wall at the void deck, the way Gabriel laughed till he couldn't stand up. All so super duper funny. I swear. We went westmall again. Westmall seems to be our "favourite" hangout these few days. HAH! At the bus stop, ade suddenil shouted that "whoever" name and we all paniced. hahas. Brought bubble tea again. Weets!* lalalas. Went back for dnt and we were late. -.- Yong sheng put a stick on my hair which can stand upright that kind. Marcus saw it and say it's some kind of lightening prevention stuff. He even put the flowers which ade plucked for him and put them on my hair and said it's my bdae present. An early one. Yong sheng put a grass on his hair too. We both like insane. He even say we short of some trees. If not we both combined tgt and we would be "flowers, grasses and trees" (indirectly translate from chinese)

overall, there's only one word to describe my day. FUN!! It has been long since i laughed so much, thanks to all these funny and smiley people. I mus rest early tonight! So that tmr i would hav more recharged energy to argue back with curry rice. LOL!

:D
Are we friends or are we not?
You told me once, but I forgot.
So tell me now and tell me true,
So I can say, I am here for you.
Of all the friends I've ever met,
You're the ones I won't forget.
And if I die before you do,
I'll go to HeavenAnd wait for you.
You are the Best and i like ya as a frend!
I got your back You got mine,
I'll help you out Anytime.
To see you hurt To see you cry,
Makes me weep And wanna die.
And if you agree To never fight,
It wouldn't matter Who's wrong or right.
If a broken heart Needs a mend,
I'll be right there To the end.
If your cheeks are wet From drops of tears,
Don't you worry, Let go of your fears.
Hand in hand Love is sent,
We'll be friends Till the end. :D

labels: would you be there for me?

2007-06-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

Why is that sad look in your eyes?
Why are you crying?
I hate to see you so down.
Tell me now. Tell me why your feeling this way.
Why dont you tell me where it hurts?
And i'll do my best to make it better.
I hate to see you so down and yes i'll do my best to make those tears all go away .
Is it your heart that's breaking all in pieces?
you are crying, you are feeling blue.
Is there anything that i can do?
Why dont tell me where it hurts now, tell me?

Many said that to me today. HAH! I kept looking down because i was trying to keep my tears in. Saw love and i can't contolled any longer i cried. Love, thanks for being there for me. :D

Johnson was like saying he's so not use in seeing my un-smiled face. LOL!

Was early for school today cause i reached before 8am. :D my hair was in a mess. Woke up late, bathed and i rushe so i'm considered early alright. down to sch w my hair any how tied up. LOL. I managed t reach sch before 8. so i'm early. Upon reaching, tys and CPR was like screaming and keep calling my name. Ms au saw me walking in and she said, " those walking in please hurried up settle down" i looked around and see and realised that i'm the only one walking in. like =.=

well, Lesson today was alright i guess? i was like half dead cause i slept late yesterday. I didn't really talked much. something happened among us -.- hang out w love, gabriel & a few to be named. Mostly 4e5 peeps. hah!

Geography
Love, K.Yong sheng, Gab and me. We 4 skipped geog lesson. We break record alright. All 4 of us are SLs and we are breaking the school rules. LOL. Didn't went 4e1 for grog lesson today. I remained in class, joined Love geog class. Gabriel like damn on. when we say "pon luh" he straight away took his bag and walked off. Love and i followed after that. kys saw he followed too. He damn cute, even bring food. Bring curry puff some more. Like having war like that. LOLs. Halfway through he gave it to some of the staff. We joked saying that he trying to bride the staff by asking them imagined that they didn't see him running out of school. LOLs.

We jus go westmall buy bubble tea than come back already. -.-
Wei tat! please stop scarying me. I got weak heart alright. Ltr i die than you know. LOL!

Games
well, i hate sports yet i played alright. Joined 4e5 cause they out number. LOLS. We lost almost every match but amazingly, we won something. like damn cool. LOLS.

HELP!! I HAVEN TOUCHED MY DNT STUFF FOR TMR TEST ): BET I'LL FAIL. ): MEETING LOVE TMR MORNING. CAN'T WAIT. {:

2007-06-05T01:06:00.000+08:00

Please agree that i'm cuter than desmond. : P
Look at the time now and i'm still bloody hell awake. How rare yea? So Goor morning! Hah! I'm freaking tired but couldn't understand why i can't get to sleep. Guess tomorrow i would be having heavy eye bags and dark circles. Nvm. nobody cares. Anyway, late night studying is fun. {:

I have been very mean lately. And its a bad thing ): I am irritated by some weird people like eugene chan & Co. All their nonsense and brainless stuff. Seriously freaking damn no link. See? By saying that i sound so mean already.

Today!
Start of with Dnt all the way till lunch break. Mr toh keep calling my name. So irritating can? He used to call ru jun name cause he don't know mind, ever since he know my name, he keep calling me. WTH! & Oh Yes, yes. I'm completing my DNT artefact. *claps madly* :D But my folio is like so asdfghjkl. I can't draw. ): love didn't come today. ):

Dimir made this. For me one ok? Dont steal! LOL!!!!

After lunch break, we went for the learning journey thing. Not very fun but we had created our own fun and laughters. HAHAHHA! On the way there, funny things happened especially when dimir's around. Marcus was sleeping so soundly on the bus that he even raised his left hand high up, showing off his armpit. Than dimir start slotting in cutterfish into his sleeves and the worst thing is that marcus had no reaction. (YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN IT YOURSELF. YOU WOULD LAUGH) Ru jun and i were like so panic than, cause we were like holding on to all the "edvidence" .We wanted to tell marcus but dimir stopped us by saying don't get yourself into unnessary troubles. We tried hinting marcus by asking him to do jumping jacks, hopefully the cutterfish will fall off but he choose to ignored us. So not our fault. We have done our part. =x Hang around with lou shi and yvonne. Johnson too. We walked around like so kind of werid tourist visting the places. Halfway throught, we realised that we were separated from e4s/e5s. luh luh luh. blah blah blah.. When the clock strikes 4pm, all of us let out a sigh of relieve, giving all those "yeah" look. -.-

See those trees, i planted it alright? -.-

After so much hardwork, i finally found where i live. hurhurs.

LOL! Yvonne wrote this.

DnD camp will be ending tmr but there's nothing to celebrate about. There still Dnt coursework thingy and i doubt if i could pass my dnt theory paper. Never pass will be ban from going to the workshop ): Think i will be the one that keep taking the test till the day before Dnt Os.

To Jerine, noella & ru jun: Don't worry much. I'm not angry with you all. :D Also don't know what's wrong with me today. The problem lies with me, not you all. And so sorry for what happened today. Sorry for being such a lousy friend. ):

Just because you were hurt, Doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed. I can be anyone, anything.

2007-06-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

I've decided to upload the pictures here since i need to RE-SAVE them before i could upload them on friendster. This might as well be a picture post. Kill 2 birds with one stone. {:

tatatata~

2007-06-02T16:55:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: ( : / D : ]

I know it's pretty boring reading a lot of words in one post. i'll promised that i would upload pics soon. :D
I'm scared, real scared. It seems like i'm losing the whole world soon. D:

Dream
i had a sweet dream yesterday. i think it's sweet. Very sweet. haha. But sadly, dreams hardly come ture. ): awww..
*Dreams = Reality. Isn't that GREAT?*
& i wan heart shaped ice cubes. ): can some more make it for me? :D hah!

Please stop arguing. :D
Qiupeng and James! is like can you two stop quarrelling and arguing. Not only you two going mad, sooner or later i'm going mad too! Do you know how it feel like to be stuck inbetween you guys, not knowing to stand on which side?

Heart
My heart sinks after reading the msg. There are many things i need to say yet i couldn't expressed it out. I was alone realising how many ends were left loose and how many things i've drifted from. Shame, you know? Because it did make me realise i hadn't let go of him. And in the midst of everything bad, it was his name that resurfaced over in my head. Sometimes, i'm just glad that it's over. This was the best for both of us anyway. We both know, and it was just one big mistake. The pieces don't fit anymore, and i'm picking them up. One by one. I know it really took a lot of your courage to msg me again. But please understand that ture love will never come to an end and it all comes from the heart, not words. so similar yet it's different, so near yet so far. All your beautiful lies.

If you really loved someone,
you wouldn't make her/him cry.
you wouldn't make her/him sad.
you wouldn't suspect her/him that she's hidding something from you.
you will give him/her all the sercure that she/he needs.
you will do whatever it takes to make her/him smile when her/him is down.
you would laugh and smile with her/him, share their joy.
and many many more.
get it?

i need love that washes away all my fears.

2007-06-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: (: ]

tmr, my cousin's bdae and i've yet to got her her bdae present. -.-
reads for today, i've decided. :D

If Only
10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the guy next to me. He was my so called "best friend". I stared at his dark, messy hair, and wished he was mine. But he didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, he walked up to me and asked me for the notes he had missed the day before and i handed them to him. He said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was him. He was in tears, mumbling on and on about how his homies had left him. He asked me to come over because he didn't feel like being alone, so I did. As I sat next to him on the sofa, I stared at his beautiful, brown eyes, wishing he was mine. After 2 hours, one basketball movie, and three bags of chips, he decided to go to sleep. He looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom he walked to my locker. "My date is sick" he said; she's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, we were standing at my front door step! I stared at him as he smiled at me and stared at me with his crystal eyes. I want him to be mine, but he isn't thinking of me like that, and I know it. Then he said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as his perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get his diploma. I wanted him to be mine, but he didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyonewent home, he came to me in his smock and hat, and I cried as I hugged him. Then he lifted my head from his shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That guy is getting married now. I watched him say "I do" and drive off to his new life, married to another woman. I wanted him to be mine, but he didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before he drove away, he came to me and said "you came!". He said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a guy who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a letter that he had wrote during his high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at her wishing she was mine, but she doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish she would tell me she loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.

Red Roses
Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose. And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows. The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.

The card said, "Be my Valentine," like all the years before. Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,

"I love you even more this year, than last year on this day."
"My love for you will always grow, with every passing year."

She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear. She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day. Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away. He always liked to do things early, way before the time. Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine. She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase. Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face. She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair. While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there. A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.

With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate. Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before, The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door. She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock. Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop. The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain, Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago," The owner said,

"I knew you'd call, and you would want to know."
"The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance."
"Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."
"There is a standing order, that I have on file down here, And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year. There also is another thing, that I think you should know, He wrote a special little card... he did this years ago."
"Then, should ever, I find out that he's no longer here, That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year."

She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard. Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card. Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note. Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...

"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone, I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome."
"I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real. For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel. The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life. I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife."
"You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need. I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve. I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears. That is why the roses will be sent to you for years."
"When you get these roses, think of all the happiness, That we had together, and how both of us were blessed. I have always loved you and I know I always will. But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still."
"Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days. I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways. The roses will come every year, and they will only stop, When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock."
"He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out. But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt, To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him, And place the roses where we are, together once again."

Life Is A Gift
Today before you think of saying an unkind word -
Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food -
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife -
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life -
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children -
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep -
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive -
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job -
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another -
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down -
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.

Life is a gift, Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it and fulfill it.

2007-05-31T17:54:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: self high! ]

EDITED!

hello! i'm feeling so much better already. free from headache. yayy! it's freedom alright. =.='' hmmmm... saw victor's tag's and i suddenly rmb that he can sway his hair. wahahahhas!!! like damn cool. i cannot. ):

=D = laugh = love = <3

hahas. ok. i'm like so high now. so self high. glad that i'm back again thought i'm doing that almost everyday.

A Silent Love

From the very beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often causes the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vents her anger on him. As for him, he only endures it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leaves, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice...... The doctor says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart every time it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phone calls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learnt sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she opened the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

random post indeed.

victor: hello. finally you are here. hahas. alright. will comment your blog in the near future. DON'T BREAK YOUR PROMISE OK? MUS COME BACK AND PARTICIPATE IN D'GIG. :D
qiupeng: hahas. yea. wan me to say u pro right? know me the best. i don't wan say leh. =PppP
des: i'm forgiving alright. :D

2007-05-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: =) ]

Hiiiiiiiii. : D
i should not be angry anymore. should not be angry over a person that's insignificant in my life. waste my time and effort. :D anw, i also don't live for him. so why bother right?

school was alright. lalala. blah blah blah.. actually wanted to skipped school w jerine cause we are both unwell. but than i saw her msgs after i got ready and so i jus go to school. was slighly late but i still managed to reached school on time. never late ok?!
*claps happily**

English workshop

wei liang was funny and shocking. :D hah!
he suddenly walked to me and said, "hello, do you know me?"
i was shocked and wanted to laugh cause he's reaction was funny. i don't know him at first but i said, " hi. yeah. i know you. "
wei liang: " oh ok, good. you rmb ben zhai asked you take the..."
at the moment i was like "so this mus be wei liang"
before he finished talking, i cut in and said, " huh? i tot i msg-ed him and he said he's collecting by himself already?"
wei liang: "oh. icic. anw, thanks!"

sin rui was like asking me wheather i really know him and i said, "at first don't know who, know know already." hah!

went pjc. saw the who. i forgot his name. -.- lecture was alright i guess. but didn't really absorbed much cause i'm real tired and sick. ): noella wee was seriously sick so she went home even before the lecture start. GET WELL SOON ALRIGHT! :D anw, noella, i'm like so nice. help you to copy down all the notes. i'm doing times 2 work. hahas. ressal keep making me high by disturbing me. i also had a lot of fun disturbing the ppl around me. too bored you know. (:

you freaking asshole. seriously damned fuck up-ed. asdfg luh. also don't know what's your freaking problem can?? i also don't know what i did?? make me scream and run for nothing. is like i'm sick alright?? you think you older than me i scared of you is it? big deal. don't talk don't talk luh. as if i'm like so despo for you words like that. make sure you meant what you say. best is forever also don't talk. never ever since such a guy which is so petty. they are all right abt abt. puke. vomit blood. boos! since i'm a nice soul, i shall forgive you but i'm aint gonna talk to you already.

some damn ppl is seriously so irritating. This person got angry all of a suddenly and suddenly walked so fast. made des and me ran after him like what. i guess he's angry w me. i also don't know why. desmond! do you know why? lols. aiyah! don't care abt him already. he is so insignificant. :D i've forgive you already. so it's alright. running can lose fats. i have a positive mindset. =.=

Joel fun = mushroom!

lols. though he've got a new hair cut. i still think he look a lot like tha maple story that mushroom thingy! HAHHAAHHA!

Smile
Whoever said that a smiling or jus a simple smile makes you feel happier, even when you're down, is completely and true. well, i don't know. maybe it just doesn't work for all, but it definately work for me. :D. Haha. But today, it's totally different. Because whenever i tries t smile, i simply feel even worse on the inside. Ahhhh, don't know why. ): thinking about it, i still countinued t smile. haven't I been smling for a long time already? so why restrict myself from smiling? Hahaha {:

passer-by: hello, wahhh. is that an insult? i run untill like so freaking funny.
qiupeng: hi. love you and good luck for Os too. tee hee hee. :D
chu jun: hahas. don't wan tell you. =PpP. anw, physic w you today was fun. :D

2007-05-29T21:26:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: D: ]

I'm Dying!
I'm feeling freaking sick. Last night, i'll get a fever and spend hours on end tossing and turning in my bed because a headache decides to come out to play too :( then the fever goes away in the morning but than my head is still feeling very heavy. Very. some one please help me end off all my sufferings. awww... well, actually i'm supposed to go to the doctor... Soon, to check up. Okay luh, so i won't DIE. But i feel weird. I was breaking out in cold sweat during morning assembly. today is the first time in life that i realised tt mr Boh is nice. hurhur! he allowed me to go out to school to buy panadol cause he said that he could not prescribe it to me.

he gave me a green form. actually i can go home but than i remain in school. i'm hardworking. :D

& noella wee! hah. don't jealous that i'm sick i still can go to sch and you cant. =PpP

Woke up in the morning feeling slightly better so i went to sch. Jerine was super early. -.- realised tt i didn't bring my pe attire, immediately call lin jing asked him help me bring since he msg me, saying tt he would be late for sch.

long study hours and the meals were like so asdfghjkl. breakfast was the worst of all. ss workshop, good time to sleep. not the the talker was boring or so, it's seriously a good timing to sleep alright. chem practical was funny. - i love : D Games section was like so.................... but funny. had many many laughs. Iris was funny. laugh a lot when she told me the funny thing that she had done. hahahhahaa!!!

LOLROFLLMAO.

that's abt it luh. told you my post are getting stale.

I NEED A GOOD REST. ):

it keep leaving me needing you.

2007-05-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: ........ ]

hello, i don't know what's wrong w me right now. i just feel like screaming and screaming, scream out all the Stress and worry out from me. I'm seriously very very very tired, tired of everything...........

yes yes. you know i love you. : D

28th may 2007, Monday

In the morning, tot i was late cause the usual ones that supposed to take the same bus as me wasn't there, and i rushed down to show in a hurry. I"VE FORGOTTEN TT SCHOOL HOLS START FOR THEM ALREADY! -.- reached school saw love and she accompanied me to go check whr i sit and was like so damn sad cause i'm sort of surrounded by disgusting ppl and jerine was serparated from me thanks to "JERINE, YOU KNOW WHO! " LOVE and i sat quite close t each other but we are still separated by " LOVE, YOU KNOW WHO! " haha! alright. after Os MT paper, went home w love, YT & GL. Labin was no where to be seen. aww..

went out w bro just now and i've just reached home. (: I think my entries are getting more and more stale:( and I've had thoughts about closing down this blog. :( and i'm like so lazy to blog alright?

LOVE! hahas. the disgusting one so fast do finish the paper already, bet he didn't even do alright. =P anw, the disgusting one is ......................... don't tell you. =Pp

Prayers for Healing
2 KINGS 20:5 -
this is what the LORD, the God of your father David, says: I have heard your prayers and seen your tears; i will heal you.

I weep in private, away from the well-meaning inquires of friends. And You, Lord, see my tears. Awkward, shattered expressions of pain and confusion stumble from my lips, yet You heal the words. My prayers is whole when it falls upon Your heart. Your answer ia complete: You love me. You see me. You heal my brokenness. Heel me from the inside out! It must be difficult to explain the ways of life and loss to Your children. When i asked "Why, Lord?" You do not turn away from me and my neediness. You hold me close and show Your heart. It is broken too- You have taken my pain. I watched your tears fall and i understand they have healed me.

2007-05-26T19:38:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: Y(: / ): ]

alright. seriously missed those days. short of a few.

TO all of you: Though all of us in the same school, NPCC training is the only few times that we really get to talk to each other. ): How sad right?? now all of us POP/ ROD already. hahs. promised to keep in touch alright? (: and mus missed me ok? lols. rmb that during ATF, i talked so much than end up got punished to stand in front to talk abt the topics "helmet"?? rmb how all of you sabo me to go in front and sing songs? i seriously have so much memories w all of you. >hasif: rmb the banana dance that we do it tgt? > zien: hello save me? rmb during LMSC i fell off from the stairs and you never save me? you were like, "oh. you fell." i rmb ok?? >khai: NIZZA!! hahas. i love you so much. hahas. rmb how we became good friends?? rmb that we always shared secert w each other?? rmb that you always like to disturbed me?? rmb how we cheered each other up when we are depressed?? rmb how we smile at each other everytime we see each other. so glad that untill now, we are still smling at each other. anw, your post card is still w me. will passed it to you some days. > steffen: rmb that you always like to suan me saying that i'm short and so??

To Qiu peng: Hey buddy, gave you a post card already but than i'm still writing for you cause the post card not enough space. ahhas. alright. not bad arh. we still get COM. never get what COA cum MIA award. hahas. rmb during one of the raining days i suggested 4 of us to ran across the parade square than end up i fell and bleed alot and no one saved me?? rmb got once we skipped npcc just to go out w wei tat and james? rmb that we go back during the june holidays, using making notice board as an excuse jus to see them and end up we did nothing and got scolded by ms tai?? rmb that we went out w rui qin & Co and then rui qin and me start throwing popcorn and end up hit other ppl?? Rmb how we always quarrelled and end up after 5 mins ok already??

To TYS: TANG YONG SHENG! my self high buddy. hahas. rmb how we know each other?? waht a funny way hur. rmb abt the 3 couples, love triangle thingy. hahas. rmb during this year sec 3 camp i got so high than i fainted in front of everyone?? rmb all camps we are in the same group and we both self high?? rmb how i got punished during atc cause my fingernails too long than i don't know how to cut my nails?? rmb how we changed group just to be in the same group so that we can both high tgt?? rmb sec 3 that time we begged teacher to give us duties during sports' day cause we don't wan to go for cheerleading?? rmb during one of the raining days i suggested the 4 of us to ran across the parade square than end up i fell and bleed alot and no one saved me?? && RMB HOW WE GOT CHEATED BY LOUIS LIM??

To wen yan: Wen yan! hahas. rmb those days during national camp, that i got so kiasu, act cute first one to got up the absailing thingy than end up the last one to come down. rmb that i stucked down there for 45 mins and end up crying cause i scared of height? rmb everyone said that i'm doing some sort of roxy advertisment cause i keep going up and down? and rmb how fredrick and i tried to attract others attention than end up we both got ASB these nick. rmb that i acted like some sort of crazy woman during the camp fire? rmb how fredrick and i ran around and end up i fell? rmb those ugly pics that we took? hahas. National camp is also when i started to get close w you. hahas. rmb during one of the raining days i suggested the 4 of us to ran across the parade square than end up i fell and bleed alot and no one saved me??

To wei xuan & lin jing: > wei xuan: hahas. so suay arh. 4 years same class w you. same CCA some more. see, i'm like so nice. give you post card already still writing for you. hahas. rmb who forced you to joined npcc one? rmb who sec 1 that time same height as me, than end up grow taller le than alwasy suan me. rmb that everytime i got a secert and i don wan tell you, you will always use this excuse by saying, "wa lau, we 4 years friend already like that treat me? " hahas. rmb that you always like to asked me whether i going npcc training, than if i nv go we btoh will pon training tgt? rmb how we always suan lin jing than end up don't know why suddenly you will be siding lin jing than end up i got suan again. rmb?? hahas. > Lin jing: Lin jing de lin, lin jing de jing. LIN JING! hahas. LOLS. not bad la, same class as you for 2 years, know you for abt 4 years, i even know your brother. LOL. rmb how i give you all those fucked up attitude during one of the annual camp cause you confiscated my phone?? i still rmb despite of this, you still help me clean my wound cause i injured my finger by accident. rmb how i borrowed $$$ from you than next year than retured to you? ahahs. rmb every monday night you will be msging me reminding me to help you bring tie? rmb that we both want to go causeway watched movie than end up no time slot?? rmb how we always quarrelled that i always will be shouting, " do you know that i hate you alot?" like so damn standard. rmb how we end up satying up till super late jus to fixed the virus problem in my com??

still got many many more. incident w eddy, imm san, nadia, fizah and yasmin.. and a few to be named. i'm so tired to type it all out.

Basically, I LOVE ALL OF YOU. (: even though that we oftenly quarrelled and fright. a lot of disagreements and so.

As years past, our friendship will stay and i assured you that for friendship i'll walked with you. you will never walk alone.

Think i post this before. i'm posting it again.

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too".Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!

5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $9 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!' Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, thenthere must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?

for now, i don't care so much any more. forgive and forget. what for making myself so unhappy living in a world full of hatred. i'm a happy virus. (: i'm happy happy happy. so happy alright. i don't hate anyone. (:

2007-05-25T22:12:00.000+08:00

25th may 2007, Friday

[ mood meter: tired. . . ): ]

"last day of school" for most of the ppl. but aint the last day the school for graduating students. D: we still need to go abck for extra lessons and so. &&&& my DNT!!!! D:

hello. school today was slck. we had to clean our classroom. lols. i did nothing, i admited. LOL. jus chatted w kah leong. recess w love. (: i love you ade. {: told them that i joined D'gig and all was like, "dunearn reject hur?" LOL. D'gig was so........ i keep laughing non-stop and i got caught smiling on a video cam. Victor can sway his hair. LOLS. dimir singing was good. (: ahahs.

alright. went to town straight after school. shooping trip w love today was fun. (: Joel is like so damn kiasu. ran so fast, love^2 and i no need to run. slowly walk also managed to get on to bus 180. we are like super powerful. (: hah!

went to eat tapanyaki. it's was yummy but it is too spicy. i can't eat spicy food still act smart go tell the person add a lilttle spicy. end up, i can't finish my food. too spicy! oh yes! Vegetables are on BIG sale! lols. Alvin came to meet us after that.

LOVE: remember the who's the disgusting one? xD

alright. went taka w love after that. we brought the same notebook. it's ultra cute. I AM A HAPPY VIRUS. {: haha. alright. we walked kinda long and far t find a bus stop and end up the bus stop is like jus behind taka. =.= love^2 and i ran like insane woman jus to run after a bus. hahaha! and guess what? we ran for so long, many km but in the end, we still didn't managed to bored the bus. like so LOL. but nvm, at least we "exercise". burn away a lot of fats. (: LOL. On the way home, i took the wrong bus. hurhur. result of being too kiasu. LOLS.

24th May 2007, Thursday

POP pics. (:

BERLIN ROCKS BIG TIME. (:

admin room. (:

me. zaki. song yang sir. Qp. Cadman. Me.

Ms tai. me. TYS. Rocker. (:

kah meng. me.

Yih nian sir. me. :D

SCOUTS!

Ryan. (:

Joshua. xD after so many many minutes. we finally found a suitable spot. what a scenery.

Matthew. xD

Short^2. JOEL!

FU QIN!

NCC!

meng yih. XD

Guan ting. (:

alright. i'm freaking hell tired right now. ): other than ru jun, all of them didn't come today. i'm so damn autistic luh. recess w love. (: quralled w lin jing. he is so asdfghjkl. someday i will seriously kill him w a butter knief. =.=

ZH: i whr got bad. i'm the nicest soul that ever live. : D
Benz.: oh hello. :D will link you up ASAP. anw, congratz for winning the D'GiG. :D your fren "an lian" me right? go take video of me. and i'm caught smiling.
ADE: hey love. yeah nice day w you. :D more outings alright? and i wont get lost again!!! hahas.
Des: funny mah. don't you think so?? XD hahas.oh. than stop swallowing fingernails than. HAHAHHAHAH.

2007-05-23T16:09:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: (: ]

hello!

just finish bathing. reached home not long. went to make ez-link card again. took a damn funny pics. and the pimple was like so damn obvious luh. ): aww.. nvm, anw i had my new ez link card already. like so damn finally luh.

alright. intensive chi programme thingy. just like yesterday. zao lao shi make us stayed back during recess cause cause we couldn't finish paper 2. so what luh. than only ppl that had completed can leave the class. i do damn slow luh. than end up we only have like 10 mins to eat. ):

took 947 and met kah leong on the way. he sat beside me and we chatted. told him that i got autistic and i'm going to westmall alone and he was like, " oh, autistic hur?" in sarcasm tone. oh yes oh yes! he's like so damn irritating during the intensive chi programme thingy. he keep irritates me by calling my name for nothing. after a while i can't stand it already and i turned back and asked what's his problem and he was like, "miss you cannot arh?" so wth....

met des, yh and po yi on the way and all of them went to the photo shop w me. yh keep calling me lion, he's so irritating. than he even said that i v extra cause of my height difference. sad luh. hahas. he also said that i'm a real lion upon hearing that i'm a leo. ZZZZzzzz.........

went westmall to take this stupid photo. i keep retaking untill the auntie can't stand me. no matter how many times i took, the pimple is still so obivious. so end up i jus any how choose a photo. haha. i paid $9 alright and the photo is like damn funny. the person asked us to come back 20 mins later, in the mean time we went to mac to have our lunch. saw kah leong & Co. he was like saying i cheat his feelings cause i said that i'm alone. lols. lalalala. eat at mac and i laugh like insane upon seeing the msgs that ppl sent at the "@ life." thingy. it's funny ok. the sent msgs like:

" National day coming soon. time flies. it's a new year soon."
"stop bitting your nails and good luck for your tmr examination"
"we did not go school today- papaya family, teacher did not caught us..... "

DESMOND!!! rmb?? hahahhahas.

i think ti's funny alright. laugh non-stop. ahahahs.

after more than 20 mins, got this photo:

stupid photo. please don't laugh alright. i know it is funny. can see the pimple. so ultra large! my eyes so small. hahas!

went JE interchange after that. waited so long just to make this ezlink card. aww..

and.......... my new ez link card. i look so funny.

tatatatata..

2007-05-22T17:52:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 22 May 2007

[mood meter: Ultra Tired ]

wheeeeeeeeeee!!!!
i'm finally back home. {:
school today was slack but knida boring. all we have is jus chi and some NIE survey thingy. bascially chinese, chinese and more chinese!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have an EXTRA LARGE PIMPLE which make me feel like dying right now. if it gets bigger, guess tmr i won't be going t school.

i've got my mum a surprised. so nice of me. hope that she would like it. (: haa!

Intensive MT programme
intensive chinese progamme daily till Os MT paper. awww..
but today chinese lesson unlike usual, was a bit slack. not really ultra slack that kind. just that zao lao shi allowed us to eat in class, which is GOOD.
*claps*

NIE survey
i think the NIE survey is kinda lame. firstly, they asked you to choose 5 of your closest friend, then they asked question like how many of them are RICHER/POORER than you?
hello!! *knock* *knock* how am i supposed to know?? {:

English oral
english oral after school. i'm like so freaking nervous at first and i end up crapping w mr kaan. talked nonsense. i seems to took quite a LONG time. went straight to admin room after that. oh yea. CHU JUN!!! hahas. my dad is an english teacher hur? damn funny. since when?

POP rehersal
before rehersal
had loads of fun before the rehersal. crapped w lin jing and wei xuan. lin jing super nonsense. he keep saying that there are 3 people in the room have autistic and 3 doesn't. upon hearing this, i immediately said that i don't have autistic and he was like, "so sorry, you are part of the 3 that have autistic. " and i said, " eh. sorry, i forgot."

saw some long long time np photos of some ex npcc members/ seniors and all of a sudden, i began to laugh loudly. everyone was like shocked and wondering why i laughed. showed wei xuan and lj those pics and they don't find it funny at all. nevertheless, i still continued to laugh like nobody business. i think it's pretty funny ok.

"if you need to laugh, you should laugh out loud. it is really bad for health if you control."

-berlin theory. (:

berlin is such a great person. don't you think so? HAHAHAHA!

rehersal
alright, we are supposed to fall in at 3pm and at 3.05pm i still haven chg to half-u. i keep telling wei xuan, " OMG! i forgot to change." and he was like, "o.O.. you actually realised?" wth. sad. ahah.

it's pretty funny to see all UGs march at different timing and so. i was laughing like insane. UGs people are adorable ppl, like me. LOL. i'm not the shortest alright. thanks to my beret. shhhhhhh...
*claps happily**

i got COM- cefiticate of merit. hahas. luckily not COP. haha. we were like saying wei xuan, lin jing, qp and me. four of us getting cerfiticate of rebel cum MIA. so lame. we still said that lin jing getting long term service award. haha! so bad.

i standing between wei xuan and lin jing. freaking unlucky can??

oh the way up the stage to received the cert, we saw this list names regarding abt the hall examination thingy. we saw name like "ong he" and so. we even saw named like, "lin jingzhao. " wei xuan and i laughed like mad. we disturbed lin jing saying that he had finally fouund a twin brother. wei xuan even say that ltr ppl will mistaken that lj from china as he only had 2 names "lin" and "jing". he made it so exaggerated. he said the person will be like asking, "lin jing? what's your surname? lin jing? from china? " lols. so lame luh.

after that while went back to our seats, i was like telling both of them that i not so evil like them to laugh at ppl's name and many heard and all of them were like, " you laughed the loudest alright?"

anw, all 4 of us got COM. haha. congrats to us hur. haha.

was damn emo during recess over some stuff. thanks to wei xuan, lj & Co for making me laugh like mad. NOw, i feeling so much better, i'm so easily contented.

went home w fu qin after that. it has been so long since any one sent me home. (: ahahs.

One night a guy & a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slide down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note.At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it."Without your love, I would die."

gary!!!: GARY! hello. you are here. ahhas. didn't know you've a blog. never tell me. XD
miichhx: imu too, honey. (:

2007-05-21T16:23:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: IRRITANCE ]

intro?? i'm a girl, i've got one pair of eyes, one mouth, one nose. i've no penis. stop asking me to intro you utter asshole.

me: who are you??
...: someone. you berlin right?

me: i'm don't know who am i. just tell me who are you??

...: who are you?

oh come on. you msg me and refused to say who are you. how am i supposed to know who are you??

so damn irritated by all these kind of people.

anw, just finshed a game of dota w benjamin. he's a big bully. supposed to let me win end up..................... i winning already that end up i saw the word defeat. awwww....... nvm. i got effort.

*claps happily**

berlin rocks your world.

*clap evern harder****

DNT

i failed alright. as expected already. i'm not trying to show off that i fail my dnt or what. O.o.

mr toh said something which make me think twice, over and over again.

"have you all seriously thought of what you want to be in the future?"

"do you think that earning $2000 per month is alot?"

"maybe you all now leading a good life, don't know what is hardship yet, how many of you don't have a handphone?"

"how many of you actually buy or pay the bills by yourself?"

" do you all know how to treasure what ever you have now?"

yeah. i wanna be a rich taitai when i grow up. {: hah!

Disclaimer: everything is paid by my parents. my parents are real nice parents. they dote both my bro and i many x infinity, and would buy almost everything for us when ever we want it. i really love and treasured them.

I LOVE MY FAMILY. (:

i know the importance to study and do well for Os. i seriously don't want to disappoint anyone, especially my parents. my MYE results just simply proved that i'm not working hard enough. some times, how i wished that i got billions of US dollar and than i no need to study so hard. ): awww..

MYE results
i think my MYE results are like crap. mdm leow scolded me today saying that she's very disappointed w my chem results. yeah yeah.. she was like, " berlin. what happened to you hur?? why your chem like that?? " so freaking fierce luh can. i'm like so sad. scold untill she make me feel like crying luh. freaking shocked when i saw my chem results too. f* hell sucks. ):

can some one please ask me out to study?

and guess what?? GREAT SINGAPORE SALE IS HERE. yet i can't really go out and shop. thanks to Os. how sad right?? i love chujun everlast bag. (: she got it for only $20 ok? how jealous. ):

noella: GIRLFRIEND! haha. finally you are here to tag. xD aww, yucks. i rock more. BERLIN ROCKS TO THE CORE & the world needs me. (: noella is pervertic. hahas. always take pics of others. alright. will relink you ASAP. don't miss me too much. (: berlin rocks many many many.

ZH: unnecessary post shall be ignored. and please don't spamming . hah!

ADE: yeah. life goes on. (: i'll smile.. hahas. the world needs me. (:

Miichhx: HONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-20T15:49:00.000+08:00

MOVE ON.

DON'T CRY.

CHIN UP, SMILE.

2007-05-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: (: ]

20th may 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE, JIAWEI, JIAHAO, RAHIMAH & A LOT MORE. I'M A VERY LAZY PERSON. LAZY TO NAME ALL OUT. HAHAS. MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TURE & ENJOY . (:

seems like a lot of people born on 20th may. hahas.

alright, man utd lose in yesterday fa cup finals. D:
how sad.
nvm, at least they still won EPL. {:

from yi quian, yesterday result:
man utd 0 ; chelsea 1
well, sorry YI QUIAN. i just love promoting your chinese name. :D

i'm going to my cousin party soon.
O.O
i'm like so excitead can. {:

hmmm. feeling damn bored now. can someone please entertain me?
i'm like chatting w tian hang now. abt yesterday soccer match.

lalalas. nonsense post.
will upload pics in the near future. {:

I NEED A NEW HAIR CUT!! *scream***

SIXTEEN:
WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOU STILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.
FIFTEEN:
YOU READ THEIR TEXTS or IMS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
FOURTEEN:
YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE WITH THEM
THIRTEEN:
YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE/THEY'RE AROUND.
ELEVEN:
WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEART BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME
TEN:
YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.
NINE:
WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOUSEE IS HIM/HER.
EIGHT:
YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS,WHILE THINKING OF THEM SEVEN:
THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.
SIX:
YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT.
FIVE:
YOU REALlIZE THAT YOU'RE AlWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.
FOUR:
YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.
THREE:
WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME...
TWO:
YOU WERE SO BUZY THINKING ABOUT THAT PERSON THAT YOU DID NOT REALISED THAT NUMBER TWELVE WAS MISSING.
ONE:
YOU JUST SCROLLED UP AND CHECK AND NOW YOU ARE SLIENTLY LAUGHING AT YOURSELF.

Crazy Sacrifice For Love

There was a blind girl who hates herself, because of being blind. She hate everyone, except her boyfriend.. One day the girl said that if only she can see the world, she will marry her boyfriend.. So one day someone,donated eyes for her and then she saw every thing including her boyfriend.. her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see, will u marry me? "the girl was shocked, when she saw her boyfriend is also blind.. Then she refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend walk away with Tears & said, " just take care of my eyes dear."

2007-05-18T16:18:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: HAPPY!!!! (((: ]

nice drawing. i know.
firstly, i'm back to myself already and i'm happy abt that. *claps*** (:

aww, actually wanted t upload the pic that i took w lyndia, but i cant find it. ):
i seriously missed those days w her.
the thought of those days make me recall how naughty i used to be in the past. HAH!

ryan didn't come to sch today. aww, how sad, so i went all the why behind and chatted w lyndia during geog class and we really laugh very loud abt the incident of ___________ , ___________ and CHIO PEI RONG!!!!!!!!!!

really had a good laugh when we rmb the things we saw in the toilet.

*laughs ** *laughs** Laugh Out Loud man! heehee..

we even recall abt the incident which happened during the first few days of sch and things that happened when i tried to climbed the short wall. hahahahs. XD
*LAUGHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grish and Damian give the sian sian look cause they do not know what we are laughing abt. we both down thr suddenly high and laughed. we even keep shouting chio pei rong name untill she also cannot stand us. it's seriously damn funny. trust me. HAHAHHAHAHA!!!

now i like some crazy woman laughing at home like man. self high hur. lols.

these few days, getting back of results and so. though it's not very satisfactory, but it is so much better than expected. so far only failed 2 sub, a math p2 and phy. damn physic. i forgot to write units and mr lee keep minusing marks for that. if not i got get a better grade. ARGHH!!

and chi oral sucks many many. i don't know how to say traffic light in chi and i was like, " na ge hong she, huang she, qing she de na ge dong xi." i even alot of english. overall i got 28. =.= we jus know the results today. hahas. my chi sucks. ): got a b3. i sucks. berlin, mus work harder.. cannot lose to YI QUIAN!!! hahahahahas!!! XD

& oh yes. class photo is funny. i look funny!! haha. can't stop laughing upon seeing it. ahha. informal 2 was damn funny. hahaahhs!!!! XD XD XD

i'm seriously damn fat luh. my bro say that i'm the fattest person he had ever seen. he even added that for my age, i'm like damn fat already. ARGHH!!! screamm!!! ):

will update more tmr or so.
need to go out soon.

it's saddening how we ignored each other,

yet we still have to accept reality.

2007-05-16T17:49:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: (: ]

Victor & me. miss those days.

hello!
i'm like so high today.
and oh yes, hahas. i've got the impression that brenden is super nice and sweet. haha!

alright. i think going to sch today jus to do 40 mcq is like super lame. what a lame sch we are in. luckily we don't have cme paper. if not we will be like goin to sch for around 40 mins and than go back home. so wth. that's part of the reason why i'm like super high. haha.

went to watch "letters od death" w jerine, rj and zj. alright. noella and sin rui were like having their lit papers. aww, so sad. hahas. well, the movie is a pretty scary show and we scream like hell. people w weak heart seriously please don't go and watch it. the funny thing is that the whole cinema only got 4 of us. that makes the movie more scary and cold. hah!

la la la. blah blah blah. i'm lazy to blog already. goodbye!

2007-05-15T16:09:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: (: / ): ]

when i'm young.

me me!! cute right. of course. it's me. (:

me and my bro. haha. we were so young than. (:

ice cream saves the world. give me ice-cream. (: hahas.

alright. hahas. actually i'm kinda lazy to update but i'm still here. hahas. tmr last paper which is good. (: it aint a victory to celebrate yet. Victory is still far. very far.

my view was blinded by the light which is ahead of me, but than i know beyond the light it is victory. sweet victory! (:

yeah yeah.. blog again some other days.

GOOD BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ~~~~~~

2007-05-13T11:36:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: (: / ): ]

i see no reason to smile.

wad was emo for?

wad were all those?

fear for this and that.

aint i supposed to be “fearless” as a child of God? Yea. I supposed to be. If i cant even pass this, how can i even be God’s soldier at all?

I still bear the wounds of my friends, of those who are part of me, of the one who is a part of me.

But thats about bearing them and getting over, picking up, carry on and get a solution to make the best outcome. wads done is done. i need to get this right into my head. really.

a half face i was thinkin was nice was put up. not really put up. but basically i was emo, sad, down. so unlike myself. i used to believe that everything will be made new in God’s hands. Now im emoing over things that dont really do so much. i wasnt myself.

the ones i love the most in the world, officially killed and burned me. the ones i gave my hearts and energies to have turned against me. u think this is the biggest suffering in the world? you think i will never get up again?

no, because i’ve experienced just a fraction of the pain my God did. he had all disciples leaving him, 1 directly betrayed him, another refused to acknowledge him. only 1 was by the cross as he hung there and died. i cannot understand the compassion and love he had for us, when until now, as his “children” we turned against him so many times. As our creator, he loves us so much that he is willing to save even the people who hate him most. If you think what i went through is crazy and too much, it is not. because it did not kill me. it killed my spirit. but my soul is with God and my spirit will be restored. This thing will not put me down. i am still the same me. if you think that i should stop so to prevent myself from getting hurt, i tell you i am not. because true love never dies. love for friends, love for even enemies, or “enemies”. God its stil the same God.

A part of me is shattered. So much of me in smithereens, not just of what happened to me, but what happened to the people i loved the most.

But life goes on. I’m still going on. I’m not gonna stop what i came here to do. I’m not gonna quit what i wanna do for God. There’s still a road ahead. The phone booth is long gone. There’s still a fire ahead. There’s still fire in me. I’m not gonna stop just cos i got several gashes. Synergiz gave me what i most needed.

BERLIN!!!!! emo no more. the whole world needs you. rmb?

anw, really a GREAT thank you to brenden. thanks for cheering me up. i really appreciate it a lot. (:
Brendos' cheering up pte ltd - my new affiliation.
i damn love this phrase, " when all thing seems to crush , worlds seems to fall apart , at least MAN UTD won the EPL"

GO GO MAN UTD!!!!

hahas.

yeah. and happy mothers' day to all mothers. (: heehee. going out to celebrate tonight. I LOVE MUMMY (:

brought a book tittled waking the dead from a christain store at imm yesterday. brought it casue i heard the book calling me. lols. wanted to buy porpose driven life. think i will get it in the near future. haha. whoever has it please lend it to me. thanks. (:

blah blah blah..

lalalas.

think i'll stop here already. i'm naggy. i know.

2007-05-11T21:13:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: numb and sore ]

to you(if you ever read this);
i loved u so much and i still do.
you were the one thing that i tried to hold on to but i just have to let go.
i knew that this time round is really goodbye forever.
casue i've played this role before; same script different cast.

and everythings stabbing me. emotionless, numb and sore. i feel destroyed, killed. Now so dead.

2007-05-11T13:24:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: EVERLASTING HIGH!!!!! ]

an art work of noella wee. =.=

hello!(:

physic today. i think it's alright. won't say anything much abt it. cause usually when i'm say it's easy, it usually turn out to be the other way round.
so it's hard. yeah?

i'm seriously sick. had coughs and flu.
ate 4 pandol at one go yesterday night and instead of feeling better, i'm having a serious headache right now. )=
Tim heard it and he was damn shocked. he thought i'm trying to commit suicide. =. = wth.

after physic,

this is noella. she love to keep taking ugly pics of us!!
went wm to watch movie w GFF/BFF.
it has been real song since only the 3 of us catch movie tgt.
alright. we watched spiderman 3.
yeah. it's like finally i've watch it.

the show was pretty shocking. jerine and i keep screaming and shouting. actually it's not that scary. jus very shocking. lols. i was damn shocked that i dropped the whole cup of popcorn. anw, we only ate half of it. it's freaking huge man! saw gary. not gary tan. it is just gary. (i don't know his surname)

HAHAHAHA!! and now i home. going out soon again i guess. (:

quick update abt yesterday.

math and physic. dnt. guess it will be a ultimate tragic. but not bad leh. i never study still can write things out of it. not bad not bad. lols. guess i will be flunking my MYE like shit. nvm. it won't be affecting Os.

marcus brought a tissue box to school. damn humours. LAUGHS non-stop.

dnt! we got so bored that jerine and i start saying hi to each other when mr kaan suddenly shouted jerine name saying that she's caught cheating. we got a big damn shocked man. ahah. but of cause, he's talking rubbish. when i drawing, he say i'm copying. is like wtf? lols. nonsense leh mr kaan. scared us. =.=

alright. i've saved $70++ within one month. *claps** (: i saved by skipping lunch daily. i'm like so fat. my bro said i'm fat too. ): that's why i need to go on a diet.

aww.

alright. that's abt it. i gtg. (:

CYA!

2007-05-08T11:16:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: (: / ): ]

i sucks. ):
will blog again somedays.

ok, fine. i'll take back my words. I ROCK THE WHOLE WORLD. (:

2007-05-03T17:15:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: ) : ]

wahahahas. those days. jerine! <3

a post to sort out my thoughts.

todays one of the rare days, which i look back at how i spent it, and how i behaved and i am totally disgusted at myself when i did everything i was against, and became someone i hated for a day.

actually it all seems too similar, to what happened last year - and after that insane cum tense period last year, i knew God was telling me i need to be more mature and have more faith in myself.

had some problems regarding abt sl stuff. i'm affected by it. damn it. break down during recess.yeah. i know big girls don't cry but i really can't take the pressure already. bet my image has been ruined in front of many. oh whatever.

i anit gonna be late for school again. i'm seriously so dead already.

i wanna have nothing to prove and so nothing to lose.
our rewards ain't here remember.
no servants can serve two masters -
temptations and GOD.

i seriously wanna give up right now, for i know it's gonna be over but the still small voice in me is saying this to me, “do not give up, because God sees the end. Hold on, because you cannot see the end, God does, his plans are great for you.”

today i see so much of that immaturity:
-being so emo
-insecurities
-totally over reacting
-lose of faith

-emotional

i think there's more, but oh well.

well, from this point in time, im not gonna fail God again, or myself, or others.
things are gonna change for the better.
ill come out of this trail a stronger person, and just be excited for that growth.

anw, thanks JERINE, NOELLA for ur listening to all my sorrows and pain in the canteen/class just now which cheered me up when i was feeling down, n GKL and Co. for your cold jokes. and of course not forgetting GARY!! hahas. sorry for making my pain part of yours. love all u guys (:

don't really, i'm ALRIGHT now. i guess.
as what gary says, " don't cry, cheered up and everything will be alright."

after school.

after math tutorial(which end at around 2.15) went westmall w jerine to hav our lunch, while the rest went other places and noella was stucked in school for history tutorial. aww, how sad. oh our way to bus stop, there's this little cute boy charge towards us w a knief and slash me 2 times. he also slashes sin rui and jerine. ru jun was like so lame. she go play w they bot while me, sin rui and jerine started running away from the boy incase he turn back and charge at us again. LAUGHS**!! LOLS!hahas! had a nice chat w jerine. thinking abt the past, we really had a great laugh. esp last year during a math exams than noella had sotmache that incident. hah! I LOVE JERINE SO MUCH! =DD

i know i post this before but i just feel like posting it again.

"I know you're in pain. I know you are hurting like mad now. You can't go to school. But i tell you one person that knows this more than I do. And i guessed you know it too,because i've been talking about him: Jesus. Whatever pain you feel, he feels too. Whatever hurt, sadness, depression you feel, it wells his eyes. Whatever despair you feel, he's reachin out. It doesnt take much. Not a warrior to draw his spear and sword, not a pastor to give a speech, but it just takes you to pray, and ask, and it will be given. Seek and you will find. And God is the answer. And you will find comfort. Because not of his majesty, but his love for you, YOU, and me that brought him to death. It's his love that enabled him to feel he pain you feel now, his love that make him feel the sadness you feel now. He's right there, waiting for you, standin by the door, outside the window, really ready to reach out his hand. But he can't. Because he gave you the choice. It just take a prayer to ask, and it will be given. Where is God? He's a prayer away."

what a long post!!

when friends walk other ways, we’ve got each other.

2007-05-02T18:04:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: [= ]

This is gary. see, my drawing is like so nice. >.<

gray drew these for me. see, i'm so fat. ):
berlin rocks more than gary. =p
Oh. how true. =x
(:

wahahas.

stupid gary. yesterday he acted so retarted than make me so high & active. than he went fell asleep. so SADDDDDD!!!!!!! nvm, forgive him cause i also fell asleep. xD

alright. cabb-ed down to school again. was raining till damn heavy. normal lesson for today. i'm like so high luh.. wahahahs. noella didn't come. sad. hahas. entertained jerine.. see, i'm so nice. =PpP i failed my a math test alright. it's the first time i failed it within this year. how sad. hahas.

dnt. arghh!! completing my artifact when i realised i need to do lots of touch up. ):

what a surprised from [=

physic tutorial after school jerine didn't go. she went for history instead. sad right. i'm alone. phy test i've got 18/25. i think not bad already. ^^ stephanie and evon so called " accompany " me home today. they were on their way to IMM. hah!

anw, siew yee. takecare and get well soon.. (:

alright. that's abt it. GOODBYE!

2007-04-30T16:10:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: hello. xD ]

hi. (:
OMG! Do you know that berlin can rock your world?! LOL! (how true)
alright. i'm in the mood to disturb people. LOL!

reached school jus in time today. *claps** and you know why?? hah! don't tell you. lols.

chinese papers today. i think is hard. for paper 1, i wrote a total of 3 pages for each section. i'm fillled w a great sense of achievement and i swear is seriously the longest essay i ever wrote. i had lots of words that i do not know how to write. i is like one row w super lots of blanks. wanted to use the dictionary and i looked around and see no one using it so i jus continued to write my essay untill i saw kah leong picked up his dictionary to looked up for words. lols. =. = end up not enough time to finish finding the words. some words cannot seem to be found. how sad! haha.

paper 2, see the first section sian already. it's also the first time i completed the whole paper within the given time. lols.

skipped lunch and went home after that. hah! i'm such a good kid. (:

i'm sort of disfigured. don't know what happened to my face. Cries** the doc say i had scratched it by accident. so unture. LOL! my parents were like so damn worried and they immediately bring me go see the doc the moment they saw the red patch on my face. damn funny.

brought a new 512MB memory card and realised that i actually don't need it. damn it!

Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
3. Stick up for you, but still respect your independence.
4. Give you the remote control during the game.
5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.
6. Play with your hair.
7. His hand would always find your hand.
8. Be cute when he really wants something.
9. Offer you plenty of massages.
10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but know when to be serious.
13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smiles a lot.
17. Plans a romantic date full of things he wouldn't normally do because he knows it means a lot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20 Drive five hours just to see you for one.
21. Always gives you a kiss when you leave, even when his friends are watching.
22. Sing, even if he can't.
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason

your smile of joy [:

2007-04-27T20:53:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: self high-ing]

a long time ago pic. cousins. short of 6 more! lols.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ipzE4QQ-LM
watch these video and you could see that i'm like so damn self high-ing! lols.

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! hahs! the longest word ever. omg! i can spell. lols.
and SAMUEL LIM! is like where the hell are you? i'm so die hard to find you, my long long long lost friend. (: anyone know him please contact me. urgent!!

YOU: "when i said i was leaving. i expected you to stop me."

ME: "don't worry, you know i would stop you! hahas. "

& you know how am i going to stop you? by chopping off your legs. LOL. no la. jkjk.. sorry la. i'm like so high today.. hahas.

mid year next week already. starting soon. good luck to ALL OF US! JIAYOU everyone. buck up buck up (:

tmr, my is my bro's birthday. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY BRO!

anw, read this. is so touching.

Girl: Slow down, I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it's not. Please it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now, give me a BIG hug.
Girl : *hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
Girl: Alright, now slow down
Guy: I love you babe
Girl: I love you too, please just slow down now! Please

(in the paper the next day): A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only 1 had survived.

The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

ain't it touching?

this time round random post. alright. gtg. BYE!

2007-04-26T15:25:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: i reached home before 3pm ]

hello. (:

alright. i reached home before 3. how rare isnt it?? lols.
I"M SO DEPRESSED THAT WHY I REACHED HOME EARLY TODAY!
oh whatever! forget it! i don't sound that depressed at all.
hah!
i'm still high. ~~

thanks to sports' day, now mr kaan keep telling everyone that i'm a mad woman running out from woodbridge. oh wth.

NAFA sucks.

the rain was freaking heavy today. cabb-ed down to school today. sent my bro to school first. i mus protect him, what a nice sis! LOL. (: nitially, the rained stopped when i reached school and the moment i alight from he taxi, it rained and i got wet. =. = and i was like, "wth?"

hariz went home during recess and i'm sitting alone again, )=

had 2 testes today. ss and chem.

SS. i didn't studied at all. so, goodbye, gone case. but bet it would be so much better as compared to the first test. i wrote one full page alright? LOL.

chemistry is kinda dissapointing. cause i studied kinda long and i dont know how to do. we only had like 15 mins plus to complete the test alright. it's supposed to be a one period test but mdm leow damn fuck-ed up w our class, cause we haven arranged the tables all these. she than delayed our test time. didnt really complete the test. tragic. that's why i'm so depressed.

shi han smile is so sweet, unlike mine =( , and i'm so jealous abt that. hah!

4 periods of maths today. first 2 and last 2 periods. i day dream in class when mr beh suddenly called my name and asked me to answer question. it has been soo soo long since he last called my name. i was so shocked. "x = 2" i go say "x = -2" tutorial end early today cause it started early. LOL!

zZzzz..

i carried all my books home. :DD
berlin so wei da. LOLS!

skipped lunch, so that i can save more. :D

anw, completing my dnt aretfact soon. yayy!! =D

alright, that's abt it.

GOODBYE! (:

please smile, cause you will never know who wish to see you smile. [:

2007-04-23T17:56:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: I LOVE ELIZA CUTS! ]

Hillsongs -Yours is the kingdom

you are really wonderful, my lord.

this is ELIZA CUTS!
aint she hot?
i am inspired by ELIZA CUTS. [:

this gonna be a short & quick post.

was almost late for school today. thanks god, i managed to reached school in time. *claps** three cheers* alright. met Labin on the bus. he was like, "late? didn;t know you could also take the bus 187. LOL"

lessons as usual.

photo taking section today. i'm sure my face sure turn out kinda funny and weid cause i was like "am chio". LOL. hariz was funny during the fun shot time. he wore a pretty scary masks and everyone was like keep pulling it. at the end, the mask tore. so damn funny. laughs!

no tutorial today. YAYY!

I love qiupeng (:
she found the silicon cover that i had been searching for pretty long & she got the right colour.
:DDD

my bro had a new com as his birthday present. i'm happy for him. :DD happy cause nobody gonna snatch com w me again. three cheers** LOL!

i need to save up! can someone motivate me please?!

alright. that's abt it.

BYE!

2007-04-21T12:22:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: BAIK arh BERLIN (: ]

on the way to the stadium. self high outside bus stop.
i'm not emo nor gothic alright. see! i'm smiling(:

haha! alright. yesterday sports' day.
haha.. CHEETAH cheerleading won!!
we got 1st!
ganbatte (:
coz got me inside ma so will win. =x
no la. jk. everyone did a great job. (:
G-D-J-O-B
GD JOB GD JOB!
BAIK BERLIN (:
omg! thanks. who said that?
LOL.
self high.

it's like the first time cheetah won something every since i came to dunearn.
so we are super happy. (:
our hard work do paid off . [:

we had lessons as usual. but than half day. first 4 periods only. after that when for the very last cheerleading practice before sports' day. hahas! than we rushed down t daniel hse to dressed up and so. all of us had that kind of emo gothic look. mac delivery is like so slow alright. we waited for more than 1 hour. boos!

everyone buzy making up (:

afiq and me. i looked so funny.

self high outside daniel house!

things that can happened while we're on they way to the bus stop.

i looked so fugly.

cheetah hse cheerleaders. short of one. daniel? whr are u?

we were slightly late when we reached the stadium. the moment i stepped in. everyone started looking at me. i bet i mus be looking very scary and gothic and mus had scared off a lot of peeps. i'm so sorry. kah leong & Co. keep staring at me giving ne that kind of look. "berlin.. what's happeing to you??" LOL! i felt damn paiseh than i asked joel lim to help me tell mr kaan that i'm here.

aftermath, mr kaan walked towards me said," omg! what happend to you. just now they made an announcement saying that some one run away from woodbridge this morning." and i was like =.="

he also asked yuhao to take pics of me to prove that this school is upside down. zZZzzzz... kah leong and wen jing saw me and than he walked towards me and say, " wahh!! you also almost wan to reached the standard like the "roll over" by the lorry that girl."

ZZzzZZZ..

blah blah blah. ppl running and so. many asked me why i didn't participate in the track event and i was like, " aiyah, i scared i win them than they cry.' LOL! i cheered for kah leong. LOL and cheetah hse ppl start staring ate cause kah leong is in different hse. LOL. Ciwen is like cheering for her joash while i cheered for gkl. LOL.

saw *****. he ignored me. ): how sad. guess he cnat remember me already. i'm trying to be positive alright. =. =
also saw _______ which i also part of my motivation. :D

my self high buddy!

the 3 key siao-s .

the yong sheng-s. TYS and KYS. hah!

tys and me.

kys and me. :D

daniel and me.

afiq and me. i had an ultra messy hair. ^^

Tom and me. see, tom acting cute. LOL

trying to modify what tom did! LOL.

ciwen and me. I LOVES HER. :D

ciwen & me again. daniel! your head is like so EXTRA!! zZZzzz..

we are so nervous, all tense up when they are announcing the winning team. when we heard the 3rd and the 2nd position were taken, we were like so nervous wondering who would win. we almost cried. shiqqin and i were like super nervous that we keep screaming and shouting "BAIK arh name"

when they that we got the 1st. we scream and shouted and we run around the tracks like insane upon taking our trophy. LOLS!

kissing the die-hard trophy that we long for. =s

w mr wong. can you see that daniel is running over? LOLS!

berlin - lyana. (:
cheetah - panther (:

missing squad:PUMA! where are you?

me - mr beh- afiq.
mr beh is like so cheapskate luh. we win than he wan take pics w us. wth!?
he saw me and was like, "wah!! didn't know that you in cheerleading." lols.

hah! self high again than any how pose. lols.
fine! i'm know i'm short and fat.

after everthing ended, when lot 1 to had our dinner.
went LJS to eat and tom really treat me go eat cause i can successfully do my split. hahas!
after than we went to take neoprints. lazy to upload. lols.
met wen ping on the way and took pic w him.
lols! hah!

wen ping & me. hahas. :DD
i looked so funny.

me - tys.
we trying to act depressed. lols.
his hair style do looked like daniel's. hah!

zZZzz, i got autistic. lols.

hahas. more pics to be uploaded @ http://hardcoreloves.livejournal.com/

anw, had a real nice time chatting w brenda on thursday. hah! (:
i'm missing JUMALIYAH laughter. wahahahas!

gosh! my this post is like so yellowish! lmaorofl! (:

alright. that's about it.

BAIK arh berlin (:

the field, my stage. (:

2007-04-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: high and active right now! thanks to contribution from TOM. ]

my fringe is like so damn short. cries*

HAHA!
somehow i neglected my blog for nearly 1 week.
loads of things happened by i'm so lazy to update.
Coughs, Colds and serious sorethroat - i had.
anw, be my witness. Tom's going to treat me eat if i can successfully do my spilt. [:

(10:12 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
hey..
(10:12 PM) Berlin ♥:
hello..
(10:12 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
rmb wad u surpose to do?
(10:13 PM) Berlin ♥:
?
(10:13 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
split!!
(10:13 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
haha
(10:13 PM) Berlin ♥:
arghh..
(10:13 PM) Berlin ♥:
think CMI..
(10:13 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
no la..
(10:13 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
muz work hard for it..
(10:13 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
but today practice did u split?
(10:13 PM) Berlin ♥:
nopes.
(10:13 PM) Berlin ♥:
lols
(10:14 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
den u u do?
(10:14 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
wad*
(10:14 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
juz stand thr?
(10:14 PM) Berlin ♥:
ya lo.
(10:14 PM) Berlin ♥:
haha
(10:14 PM) Berlin ♥:
so CMI.
(10:15 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
but muz try ma..
(10:15 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
still pain?
(10:15 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
haha..my whole body aching..
(10:15 PM) Berlin ♥:
haha.
(10:15 PM) Berlin ♥:
yup.
(10:15 PM) Berlin ♥:
haha..
(10:15 PM) Berlin ♥:
my legs damn pain.
(10:15 PM) Berlin ♥:
haha
(10:16 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
haiz..]
(10:16 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
but muz stil try ma..
(10:16 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
haha
(10:16 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
push urself..
(10:16 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
for cheetah ma..
(10:16 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
haha
(10:17 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
i trust u can do it..
(10:17 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
muz prove it to mi that u are capable ma..
(10:18 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
den i treat u eat..
(10:18 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
hha..set ar.
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
haha.
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
ok..
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
haha.
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
i try.
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
think tmr i can spilt.
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
you know i can one.
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
lols.
(10:20 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
yeah..taht the spirit
(10:20 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
muz ar..if not cannot go home..
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
yeah.
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
lols.
(10:20 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
haha..like u last toime..
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
haha,
(10:20 PM) Berlin ♥:
ya lorx.
(10:21 PM) 我是林学通( I am Lin:
haha..i very look forward to tml..

was so sad over the passed few days. sad over many things. mr beh saw the paper which i wrote, " i am very sad " and he was like asking me ,"why so sad?" LOL!

went to school as usual. woke up in the morning and i found out that i sound so manly. THANKS! lols. blah blah blah. normal lessons & so. dnt! argh! i re-do my aretefact. i guled wrongly. sad right? i know. LOL! had chem tutorial followed by physic test after that than cheerleading. had cheerleading almost everyday. sports day is like in 2 days time and i'm so CMI! training w Tom was like so ridiculous. he's like trying to squeeze out all my inner organs alright. TYS tried to spinned me and he end up holding me upside down for like so damn bloody long. pathetic!

i'm so damn missing Janet they all.. T.T

shall update on speech day some other day!

爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害?

原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你

2007-04-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: phew! ]

to zhi chao,
well, i would try my very best. :DDD

i had said something that i wanted to said quite some time already which made me feel a great sense of relieve.

hair check today.
Victor was like so interesting by pinning my his fringe but end up still get caugh. LOL. =P
lin jing was the pathetic one.

i re-run for 2.4 and i think my timing is kinda saddening.. if i run 15 sec faster i could get an A. Mr kaan saw me running and asking me stop running cause he had ppl to run. wth! hmmm..
think most likely i would re-run again next thursday.

math tutorial during math lesson & continue straight after school. so it ended at 2.30.

lunch break. after i brought my food and was abt to go find a seat,
cheaid's friend, the don't know who
i knocked against him. than my food drop.
Chaeid is like so evil luh..
keep laughing non-stop..
i'm so freaking embarrased already.

Prefect meeting at 4.
i'm sad.
it's my last prefect meeting already. T.T
was day dreaming throughout.
wasnt really aware of that till the meeting was abt to end.
out of now where, i got so enlighted that i realised it's actually wonderful t b a school prefect and many would b envious of us.

out of a few thousands plus plus of the school popoluation. less than hundreds are prefects.
so i should be GRATEFUL than i'm selected t be a school prefects.
we are given lots of oppuntunities as compared to others.
i gonna step down from prefectorial board alread yand now than i realised that it actually GREAT t be a prefect and i'm proud t one too. (:

i used to hate duties and keep asking myself, "why am i doing it again and again?" and repeatedly asking myself. "why prefects mus come to sch early?"
still rmb that my very first announcement duty was a disaster!
well, Duties are actually wonderful cause not many people can do it.
only the prefects could.
i also have been thinking, " why are the teachers being so strict w our attire and keep scloding and complaining to the DMs abt the prefects' attire??"
"we should let the quality control the quanity
& using quality we have to control the majority."
i've finally comprehened this alright.

tmr would aslo be my very last NPCC training. sad. 4 years in npcc and now it's finally over and im stepping down already. ARGHH!!!

oh it was sad..
oh it was sad!!

LOL.

2007-04-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: satisfy! (: ]

:DD

alright. i'm completing my artefact soon.. congratz me. (: three cheers* lols. is like so finally. haas. mr Tay said it is the first time that he saw a girl do dnt aretfact so fast. hah! joel fun and i was like cray doing dnt lessons. we keep calling each other name while we are drilling or cutting the artefact. so lame. we keep telling each other how scared we are while we are using the machines. LOL!

did something pathetic.. after screwing everything. i found out that all the markings i forgot to erase.. so end up, i need to unscrew everthing jus to erase it and screw it back..
actually dont wan to erase one, though can cheat abit cause it's hidden inside. thanks to that stupid acrylic for being transparent.. no matter where i put the workpiece, it could still be seen.

so have to screw-->unscrew--> ans screw it back again.

boos!

joel fun is really a scary cat.. hah! oops. tsk tsk.. unlike me so so brave. =/

physic tutorial was like so.....
we didnt really hav tutorial..
went back t class after lunch break and mr lee was already in the class folding his hands and staring at the class..
guess we were late.
after that he was like telling us no point of having tutorials since many are not interested and he say it's time for us t leave as some need go for the speech day rehearsal. lmao.

well, earlier part of the day before npcc start was fun too. :DD with lin jing, alvin, joel they all.. many laughs. they keep any how call ppl "peter", "john" all these and when mr siva walked pass they purposely keep calling him "Ali".. LOLs.

speech day rehearsal - super tiring.. it had been ages since i last march. drills totally sucks.. hopefully it would get better on saturday.
cheerleading after day. a short and sweet one.. i self dismiss myself. lols. cause very tired. =.=

&& oh yes.. saw aaron yesterday outside wm the bus stop. didn't really talked much cause he's running after a bus. sad. ]:

Arghh!! i need a hair cut.. my fringe is damn irritating.

2007-04-10T17:42:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: ): ]

i'm not feeling good. ):
guess TYS knows why.
cause we are feeling the same over SOMETHING!!
irritaring freaking bias assholes!
BOOs!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-09T17:41:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: high! ]

shit. holy i mean.. my contact lens is stuck.. sad.. ))):
SPIDERMAN IS OUT ON 1st MAY!!!!
well, there are pretty lots of nice movies coming out soon..
The reaping seems nice too.. arghh!!

tutorial only 30 mins for today. [[: cool..
went wm w rj and sr to get ying lin present. ate mac for lunch.. so filling..wa lau.. we at ZINC did something embarrassing..

alright.. i'm going to cook and bring food t school tmr. (:
i think everyone should eat to live..
tmr RJ bdae. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!! [:
my bdae also coming soon. (((((:
tytyty!

HI, i'm berlin. (:

ARGHH!!! i don't know what to blog already.. next time than blog. (:

I"M NO ANGEL BUT I CAN MAKE YOU SMILE. [:

2007-04-05T16:37:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: HIGH x TEN ]

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
wide GRIN**.

from left, gab, me, daryl, cons.
gosh! we look so fugly.

alright. i'm finally came back for the sec 3 camp.
im so tanned. sad ):
throughout the camp im so SELF HIGH!!! tytyty. (:

was kinda glad when i know wen ping was in my group. (:
at least i know quite a few peeps in the group.

we are dismissed early from school on the 2nd april for the sec 3 camp recce. spent most of our time on briefings!!! rules and regulations, safety precautions and the safety of the campers.. blah blah blah. MASS DANVE WAS DAMN FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! encore** we hand both our a math and e math test.. on the smae damn day.. some more we do it in the middle of the night. wtf!

the following day. 3/4 which is also the first day of the camp. we waited and waited for the sec 3 to arrive. and for our group, out of 26 ppl, only 24 came. blah blah blah.

anw, i'm in group 9 w SIEW YEE & WEI QUAN.. wheee!!!~~~ GOGOGO man utd fans cum E4-lers! (:

Day 1 programme:

Briefing--->ice breakers/geberal station/ belay school ---> camp admin ---> lunch ---> principal's address ---> HR elements ---> rock climbing ---> reflection time ---> group discussion preparation ---> dinner ---> Group discussion presentation ---> Debrief ---> preparation for campfire/ supper/ wash-up ---> lights Out

let's see sunrise tgt. : D

i looked so funny.

DAY 2

alright. yeah i know. today i did lots and lots of zi j=high stuff. for example, during lunch, i solo do and say the cheer by myself. wa lao. liang cheng and zhen hao cheat my feelings! they said that they would say the cheer w me than end up i solo do the cheers. SABOTAGE! they liang cheng was like keep lauhing and saying that i doing some kind of " gao xiao xing dong" and they all bust into laughter. not funny al all ok?!

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abner do the dance for our campfire's performance and he fell off the stairs.. hah!! so funny sia.
campfire's night. WOAH! i got so high that i fainted. omgwtfrofl!! it's a super damn long story.. all start w dranking 3 bottles of orange juice at 1 go and than aso thanks to abner and his " MUMMY MUMMY COME AND SEE!! "arghh!!! after campfire, the ex SL played so retro songs and all the sl start going crazy and insane.. we scream and shouted.. i went so crazy that i went around keep saying " yo arh.... yo arh yo... " to all those ppl for are not high yet. lols.. my very very first vivtim was hui han.. hahahhahahas! && he jumped and dance till so funny!!! wahahahahhahahahahs! it is seriously damn funny.. you should see! well, guess the image of sl in dunearn is ruined. from a normal campfire's place we transformed it to some kind of retro hall.

daniel, zul, alif, abner, hui han, daryl high w me like mad.

alright. think i really got too high.. it is seriously too high.. imagine my normal higness x ten times! woah! and when everything ended, i got hyperventilation and than fainted. when woke up, i felt all the cramps, dizziness. arghh! was kinda scary. i got super emotional after that - i'm crying and lauing at the same time. siao, i know. i heard zhen hao talking to liang cheng saying that i got so self high than end up like that. anw, THANKS for that "visiting"

this proved that too much of self high aint good! LOL. but who's cares? lols.
ok, i wanna say a big big big THANK YOUto matthew (: , abner(: , darlyene(: , celine(: , TYS (: and a few to be named! tytytyty.

Day 3

area cleaning and than break camp. area cleaning was really a tough job. i was like asking them not to miss me as i know they would miss me one. lols. then feng hao was like asking me not to worried so much as he would come my class to harass me everyday. wth. after that i went back to school to study. i'm the only one that went back to class to studied. so hardworking right?? i know. (: hahas. studied for 2 periods and i left before math periods. cause mr beh not coming back today and guess the class would be having test today. since, i had took it during th sec3 camp, so i left the class. self dismiss. LOL.

that's abt it luh. (:

guess ***** went to kick soccer already. asdfghjkl...
& you made me high! <3

GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-31T21:52:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: filled w lots of achievements and at the same time, feeling relieved! ]

super burnt faces. (:

alright. ATF today was like ultra fun.. some how my FAITH in GOD allowed me to complete all the obstacles.

hmmm.. ATF at Ubin we met in school first. i was late, skipped breakfast.. but somehow, i'm not the latest. wahahahhas. [: qp and nizza ltr. hahas. when everyone arrived already, we then took a mini bus down to changi village the jetty there to change to bumber boat to ubin...yupx.. it's my 3rd time going there, w NP ppl and perhabs the last time too!! how sad!!

after that, from thr, we took a van in to the npcc camp site. on the way, we saw other schools walking in and we were like waving and mocking at them. it's evil.. i know.

inbetween the briefing, they asked us to think of a group cheers. whatever happened last year happened again.. that stupid SAME instructor clamied that i talked and laughed while he talking and asked me to stand in front and talked a topic he choose for 3 mins. The topic was on "helmets" i talk rubbish of course.. they after that i stared at him and he was like, " haven 3 mis leh.. why stop?? ok luh.. go back go back.. everyone, clap for her.. she's the first to step out.." wth..

last year they only asked me to entertain the cadets this year asked me talk abt a topic. so interesting hur.. still rmb me and jun ye from entertaining the cadets become self introduction among ourselves.... LOL..

after i say finised, he caught another guy and tt poor guy was given the topic"underwear" LOL! i was like, "wahhhh.. luckily never giv me tt topics" LOL..

hmmmm... since we went w area 17, we are considered as the GUEST to the other unit so we began w the flying fox first.. sounds cool?? lols. it was real fun!!! 7 storey high!! alright. i admit tt i stuck down thr for damn long but as compared t nat camp is much faster ok?? lols. than a unity sec guy said what i stuck thr for like 45 mins? i think he exaggerate it ok?

after that.. we proceesd to ACR- adventure training ropes. the most challanging among all obstacles. alright.. this is ultra fun.. i like.. haha.. i also stuck up thr quite long cause i trying to act cute by taking the harder path.. than everytime when i make the first step by streching my leg to reached for the rod, i stepped in again and i told the factilitor that my leg not long enough.. alright.. i repeated this for 3 times and i brief 6 people.. meaning that i had let 6 people go first. LOL. seeing qiu peng stucked up thr i also scared.. when she proceed to stage 2, i go after her.. I PRAYED DAMN HARD. prayin that both of us will reached the ending point safe and sound..

Eric, from juying sec, was behind me.. he keep cheering for me and keep talking to me making me so distracted.. he stucked at stage 2 and i stucked at stage 3.. due to the height, both of us the legs became weaks and numb and we stopped down thr for kinda long.. both of us said to each other," cant move on already, legs numb" at the same time and the instructor heard and laughed.. so bad.. making a fool out of ourselves.. well, i was like shouting to his friends at the opposite side, asking him to save me.. lols. and he was like," my obstacles different from you all, how to save you??" LOL. in the end i took up all my courage and just walked w/o using the ladder to support myself cause i don hav the strength to pushed the ladder. than, i was thinking " at most die only.. oh lord, i hav faith in you. i know i can get across safely. " so i jus walked quicly i managed t reached the end.. so pround of myself.. after that, i cheered for eric, which was currently very far behind from me already. hah!

after that, lunch break, followed by

IRC-INTERMEDIATE ROPE CHALLENGE.. well, this one not as high as compared to ACR. hahahas. i saw something funny and entertaining going on..

i saw steffen helping eddy to pass.. eddy crossed the 1st challenge and he was stucked at the 2nd.. steffen seems to be using all his strength to pull him to the 3rd stage..but.. than after much hardwork, in the end the one moving is steffen instead of eddy. he keep jumping and pulling.. but just cant move eddy.. steffen sweating all over and than he asked hasif and the other instructor over to help to pull eddy.. end up.. it took them abt 30mins to pull him, which also tells the amt of time that i'm stucked and the time i had taken in watching the happening incident. i sweared that i didn't meant t laugh but it is seriously damn funny.. cant controlled. well, i'm stuck at the last stage when i saw all this INTERESTIN thingy going on. i'm scared and at the same time laughing resulting the facitilator thinking tt i'm insane.

next was the DD.. dont know what that called.. lots and lots of pole... big ones, hanging in the air and 2 person have t help each other to climb up..as high as possible.. qiu peng and i paired up.. we helped each other.. we reached up till the 2nd last pole only sad.. haha.. i injured 2 of my fingers.. ouch!! it bleed while i was clmbing.. lin jing, steffen they all damn lame.. keep saying i like to touch ppl butt.. wth!!

when we are heading towards the tunnel, it rained. what a waste.. the activity is all cancelled. we end at around 3 plus instead of 4.30pm. i had only done 4/6 obstacles. arghhh!! i haven do leap of honour (lead of death) LOL.. sad. last year already still cant get to play all. cant get the chance to play..go back to foyer, debrief than dismiss. we are the last group t leave the campsite.. we are nice ppl.. we let others go first.. tsk tsk.. so thoughtful of us. THANKS!! =DDD we had hell lot of fun at ATF and an enjoyable time taking pics. (: && oh yes.. i know EDWIN!!! =.= lols.

It's only 7 story high! LOL~~

ACR!!! hahas. i completed it. whoooosh!!

campsite which we slept during last year atc!

FOYER - assemble area.

JETTY!

something intersting. LOL!

alright.. yesterday.. com got virus, the resuls of bring busybody. the virus prevent me from talking to ppl on msn.. so sorry to all that i never rplied yesterday. (: chatted w lin jing for nearly 2 hours.. we the help of him and his bro, the virus had successfully being removed from my com. THANKS!!!

after lin jing told me what .......................... say abt qp and me. i get so fuck-ed up.. cause we are really innocent and this .......................... anyhow put words into our mouth.. wth.. you know who you are. dumbass! & you are really self-centred.. you know abt "IT" and you refused to informed us. NVM. i'm nice.. i forgive you..

ehs hurs.

somethings happened abt 3 weeks ago which make me feel guilty untill now.. argghhh!! i was boarding the bus home w labin.. then we keep talking.. the bus was totally packed and stuffy. there's this old man, around mid 80s was standing beside me and i didnt realised. no one willing to giv up the seats to him.. when i realised and was abt t giv my seat to him.. he alighted.. untill now, i'm still seriously feeling very bad cause i didnt give up my seat for that old man..

that's abt it for today... GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

things aren't getting any better,

& you wouldn't even care.

2007-03-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: fucking sick but still feeling high!!]

i'm down with stomach flu.
damn.
keeping goin t th toilet and vomited for numerous times.
someone please save me!!!!!!!!!

well, think noella had spread it t me cause mr beh says that stomach flu spread, he experienced before.. so pls stayed a way from me, or you will end up like me. thanks!! during math RETEST tutoring section thingy, i keep going t the toilet to vomit. ultra gross. halfway thru, i cannot tahan already, so i went home t rest.

i'm feeling damn giddy right now and my stomach is like so damn painful. I AM STRONG OK?? can take it one..
so damn hungry now but i could not eat, if not i would vomited everything that i ate again and again && i don't want that t happen.

mid year in 6 weeks time?? arghhh!!!!!! so many things need to study. i need a bigger brain and a better memory. BERLIN arh!!!! start studying now or you well regret. you cant change the past cause it is already over, you cant change the future cause it hav not happen. you only can change NOW NOW NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O level MT is in less than 2 mths time and my chinese had all of a sudden become so !#$@#
argghhhh!!! buck up buck up!!!

alright.. tmr speech day rehersal. full-dress if not wrong.. can i don go?? i'm feeling damn sick right now. sad. & labin jus msg-ed me to meet him as usual.

hopefully it gets well by tmr. i wan go back sch study. pray for me that i'll get well.

kkx. stop here..

need continue w math..

bye!

2007-03-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: unusual highness!!!!! ]

the heart on hariz and my table. wahahahahs!
did this during math lesson cause we were too board. +)

hello. [:
yayy! congratz me.. i have finally finshed all my homework and i'm proud of that. LMAO!

i regard for not stichting the wound straight after i fell. now it recovers and the wound seems to concave in. yucks! i aslo regrad doing stunts like hell yeterday and now, i have musscle cramps all over.

anw, i'm late for school again. but this time is different. it's like only late for only 7 mins ok.. like so damn F**K.. sorry mun wai. i broke the promise. ARGH! real sorry. luckily, it's a new term and i dun hav to go detention. phew! and sorry lin jing, i'm given the task to force you to go ATF.. so please go ok?? thanks!

my mother and i did something so intersting in the morning which is also part of the reason why i'm late.. i called her to help me take my dnt file and she said she was buzy.. so i went back to take the file by myself.. how i know she go to the nus stop and looked for me w my file. so i took the lift up and go to the bus stop and find her.. in the end she was at home already.. and i went to take the lift again. and when i took the lift upwards, she took it dowards.. in countinues round and round for like 3 times?? interesting right? i know..

the reason for being late(what i wrote on the pink form): actually i'm early. forgot to bring my dnt file, go back home to take my file, missed the bus.

Labin was late tgt w me. LOL. we both missed the bus. he msg me immediately after he had missed the bus and we decided to late tgt. LOL. met sin rui on the way to school and we both said, " pek cek hur?? late tgt again."

LOL.

school's alright. just that i got a little too high..

cheerleading!!! well, kinda fun and i LOVE stunts. [: oh my god! i was paired up w vaymond again(ltr deeviya jealous), no la. jkjk.. still rmb that last year for national day performance, how vaymond knock my head against the floor while spnning me. ouch!

i gonna learn how to splint witin 25 days. it's seriously killing me please! die. . .

noella: hey hey. take good care of yourself and Get well soon yeah?? i wanna see you back in school.. lols. take loads of care. (:
adeline: ehs. cheer up yea?? don't think too much k? there's always me to count on. [: Love you. (:

27th march 2007

well, i got so so so damn high today. everything seems to be so funny today and i don't know why.

assembly seems quite interesting although i don't know what the hell the person is talking about?? but i just think that it's quite interesting. LOL. cant really rmb what excatly happened. just rmb that i laugh at every single thing. crazy woman? i know.

PE - thought that siva didn't come so we no need to run, end up mr rani asked us to run 2.4. it's our test today. i got an B. sad. ) : just 1 more min faster and i could get an A already.. WAAAAA... T.T after running, i got difficulties in breathing. don't know why.

deeviya took a handkerchief and cover her mouth, actually she's wipping her sweat, but when lin jing saw, he shouted, "eee.. deeviya act cute??" he added on, "practice now for vaymond to see is it??"

&&&&&& oh yes! oh yes! zhao fell while she rock the chair. that was like so damn funny. hahahhahahahhas!!! & i didn't laugh(like real). =x. alright. i laugh. whatever. this is seriously damn funny. i was struggling with math and zhao jing sat at the edge of the chair and all of a sudden she fell. I SAW THE WHOLE PROCESS!!!! hahahahhahahas!!! i didn't laugh. LOL. she still dont wanna stand up. she sat thr and laughed with us. wth.. hahas. sia la.. is really damn embarrssing.

tutorial was funny.. pretty funny. i stared at the question and i started to laugh madly. why i laughed??? good question. i also don't know.. and you know what?? i am dangerous cause i am able to kill with a butter knief.. so please don't come near me. lols. lin jing anti social sia. didn't wan to come back to group. hahas.

cheerleading was fun.. we do stunts do till like mad.. haha.. and i created a new kind of stunts. yayy! [: .. hahas..

alright. get high we me. [[[:

CIAO!!

2007-03-26T18:03:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: are you hungry? ]

not really in the mood to post right now.
i am hungry, i am hungry, where's my food? where my food??
LOL.
hah!

well, give me $700 and i love you till death.
i have too much temptations in mind right now.
please motivate me. i need to save up [:

i just cant stop smiling to myself today. dont know why. OMG!!~~ i'm going crazy soon. lols.

had an ultimate long chat w mr kaan today. yayy. i had potential. LOL. ru jun, sin rui and zhao jing. BETRAYER!!! LOL.. they purposely suan me when they saw mr kaan talking to me. They go say,"aye.. berlin.. not going home arh?" they walked away w/o waiting for me. hurhur. actually they waited. LOL. blah blah blah.. well, saw the comments mr kaan wrote for me. it says,"............................... her cheerful deposit never fail to brighten any dull day." hahas. i only remember this phrase. LOL. (:

alright. that's abt it.
&& Please tell me that there's no training tmr.

2007-03-25T16:58:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: hyper. :D ]

smile beacuse it happened. [:

smile cause you need to. ( :

to the merry of happiness. *cheers**

dont eat to live. LIVE TO EAT. :DDD

oops. caught eating again.. =. =

ignored my stupid face please.
more pics to be uploaded in the near future..

i dont hav it w me now.

yesterday, we went t a resturant , someone in town(forgotten whr) to celebrate my grandfater 80th birthday anniversary. it was ultimate grand. everyone wear till damn formal.. whoooosh!

grandfather invite a lot of ppl.. all closely linked but dont really know each other.. relatives realitives.. grandfather friends etc.. LOL.. at first all of us were like so concern abt our etiquette and the way we eat etc. damn stressful.

scared that our image will be ruined. LOL. in the end, we dont really care much and i got super high cause i drank lots and lots and lots of orange juice.. ^^ went to the stage w cousins and we got so high that we keep singing and dancing.. i knew that we sang till damn awful. petty the auidance and bet they don wanna hear it again anymore in their life time. LOL. but nvm, at least w have the courage to go up the platform t sing and dance. LOL.

blah blah blah blah..

& oh yes.. dont eat to live.. LIVE TO EAT.. :DDDD

wahahahahaas.!!!!

well, i shall stop here dont know what to post..

not really in the mood.. LOL..

till next time. [:

2007-03-25T01:32:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: HIGH HIGH HIGH! ]

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with y our smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends?

HELLO. hahas. just came back not long from my grandfather 80th birthday anniversary. everything were like so grand. :DD

well, i so damn super high. haha. drank lots of orange juice.

haha. alright.. i would blog and upload pics some other days. maybe tmr?? i'm so damn tired right now. ( :

BYE!!! [[[[:

2007-03-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: SUPER HIGH!!! ]

school was good today..
i passed all subjects except for chinese. *faint**
filled with fun, laughter, joy and madness. CRAZE!!!! as usual.
hunger will never be heard around our sitting area cause the most of the ppl around thr(like me), always brought food to school. [[[[:

all these cokkies are so cute! hah.. i kept them at first but still eat them up in the end cause i'm hungry. LOL.

i think hariz and i will grow fat very soon cause we hav been eating all day long in class !!!!

tot that i was early to school today, cause i didn't hear th music thingy. so i was like damn happy and i went around telling the ppl around m that i'm early today. upon reaching, i saw everyone standing up, getting ready for national atheme and i know i'm damn late. lmao!

Chinese tutorial after school.. do formal letter writing thing.. was supposed to hand in "jian bao" by the end of today but i forgot t hand in. =x. i go cope yujia newspaper cause i lost mine.. lol. ( :

Things that happened before training:

i know i look funny in this pic. please control yourself. dont laugh. LOL.

npcc was super slack today. i tot the sec one safety first lecture. they were like so damn noisy and reckless.. qiupeng and i keep asking them to lower down their volume.. i think they were excited to see me that why they are so damn reckless. LOL. ( : hariz saw me teaching and he was like saying," you so blur and careless, some more fell into the drain still dare teach ppl safety first." LOL.

hahas. i can teach ok! dont look down on me.

Lower down your volume and please pay attention in class ok?!

after that the sec 1 don't know go train on their drills and we slack outside npcc room. wahahhas. saw hariz! haha. we had lot of fun in creating and laughing at those ncc ppl the name tag, sepecially deroy's. haha. his name tag wrote " K. C. tan" i said that should chg his name to isetan better. Than hariz go say actually K.C. that it stands for "killer cock" LOL!!

at first we didn't know benedict name. so we were like calling him all kinds of name. John, Peter, Tom, Dick, Herny etc. LOL. i think th name Peter should him th best. LMAO!! LOL.

didnt really see much of tys, my self motivated high partner, during training today. he took sec 2s. LOL!!

well, that abt it.

CIAO!!!!!

2007-03-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: HIGH!!!~~~~ ]

& this happens when you get too high!! weets*

i currently feeling very hungry.. arghh!!!
had been eating all day long..

well, i ate early in the morning, ate inbetween lesson, during recess, after school and i went home.. was ultra hungry today and i dunch know why..

during CME lesson, i realised that i had an aweful pimple & i was like "OMGWTF!" i touch it and it brust than it bleed. it didn't realised it bleed untill kah leong say" what happened to your chin??" LOL! it look so aweful that i almost went crazy abt it.. i went around looking for plaster to cover it.. arghh!! Do you know how much i hate pimples?? anw, who like it? LOL..

rujun say if i cover it, if her face was mine, wouldn't i have to put plaster all over?? LOL,.

i found a plaster and i immdiatelysticked it, trying very hard to cover it and hariz was like telling everyone that i look like an injured rugby player. =. = i entertain him by agrees everything he said. ya yaa.. labin was much worst.. he said i look like doing some kind of plaster advertisments and he asked me which company i doing sdvertisment for. LOL.. ** SCREAM********* faint**

ASDFGHJKL!

no math tutorial today.
we went to ngee ann poly for some lesson cum practical thing. hah!!

me & ZARA. LOL. +)

some notes written on the board which i don't understand a single thing at all.

see, i'm paying attention. yea right.. =. =

noella wee geog eng!!! she's trying to act shy only. LOL!
oh man. she going to kill me if she sees this. waaa!!

Toh kai ting & me. ( :

The product of HOs. ( :
jerine & i made this.. so proud of ourselves.

& you know what?? The bulb light up. Amazing! tyty. [ :

& on the way back home. yayy!!!

goodbye!!!
zzZZzzzzzzz~~~~

2007-03-21T17:32:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: - ]

i'm feeling so much better right now. [:
hariz gave me a lollipop in the morning which really brighten my day cause a was feeling kinda sad.

i'm easily contented.

school as usual. . .

see, IT'S LOLLIPOP. +)

i managed to do my artefact w the wrong materials which is like so amazing ( :
Jin hui messaged me. =.= we have lost contact for very long already.. mus be that stupid bryan go giv him my number. w t h. . .

i've sorted out all my thinkings, re-programme my mind. no more negative thoughts from now. [:

Love is NOT an emotion.
Just because you don't feel loved, it does not mean that you are not loved!
Just because you don't feel loved by your spouse, it does not mean that your spouse does not love you.
Do not go with what your feelings tell you, at these times.
Because feelings are human!
And human change, feelings change as much as we do.
But God is unchanging. Stand firm, and keep to the unchanging one, and hold on to the end.
Everyone is created for a PURPOSE in life.
Don't ever try to blend in cause you are meant to stand out.

BYE!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: HIGH cum tired ]

from left: me, afiq, cons, hafiz. [:

hello. [:
i'm currently feeling very tired right now & the wounds on my legs really hurts alot..
can some one please save me. =(((

assembly was kinda bored.. ru jun and i keep talking craps and get super self motivated high.. we also keep eating.. she said that mr wong used back the same slide and i told her it was a different one.. different in the sense that the background colour changed. hah! see, how observant i am.. thank you thank you..

after that was PE.. haha.. i changed into pe attire ok?! if not ltr mr siva say me again.. & guess what? he rmb my name and he was like asking me, "you fell on sat?" LOL.. he excuse me form running the 8 laps, which i kinda rare.. today i'm so determined to run but he refused to let me run.. what a werid person.. when ppl not in the mood to run he asked us to run.. when he wanted to run so badly, he refused to let us run.. wtf.

maths!!!!!!!! well, mr beh was kinda funny during math lesson.. he say what teach us teach untill very the "pek cek" & all of us started to laugh and stared at sin rui cause that her favourite word. wahahahas.. he also keep calling my name.. the habit of his guess came back again.. when he called my naem, hariz and constance were talking to me & he say, "wah.. i called berlin than pp on her left and right also talked to her.. how can she concentrate??" LOL. +) ok.. got "suan" by hariz abt the man utd thingy.. what ever things i said good things i said abt man utd, he sure got things to say one.. wth... anw, i failed my e math class test.. i got 18/40 and now i have to go for tutorials... arghhhh!!!!!!!!! i don wan.. haha.. but overrall for my CA1 marks i didn't fail.. i got 100 for a-math and around 62.5 for e-math.. think quite good already leh. [:

recess, VE, english and ss..

went for dnt after that.. for a while only.. to check our materials list.. hopefully i wrote the right dimention if not ltr very "jia lat"..

had cheerleading after that.. nth much for today.. tys and i taught vaymond, afiq and tom some steps cause they didn't come for training during the hols. haha..

some pics took before cheerleading:

cons & me. [:

peace & go...

Monday, 19th march 2007 whosh.. mun wai was like super on today.. he really called me early in the morning to wake me up.. tsk tsk.. haha.. almost late today, met fu qin on the way to school.. actually we wanted to took taxi but than end up 187 came.. hahas..

school's alright. [:

stayed back after school for english tutorial.. we mus complted all undone hw than we are allowed to go home.. arghh!! ahha.. so i quickly rushed to finish one of the speech which i think i owned it for kinda long time cause don't know how to do.. haha.. took around 30 mins.. kl best man.. within 30 mins, he can complete 2 compo.. which is amazing!! LOL..

that's abt it. [:

Janet & me. [:

2007-03-17T23:00:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: ultra happy x) ]

hello. [:
i'm ultra happy right now. wahahahhas.. some how, i managed to complete star 2. is like so amazing luh.. thanks to john, desmond and a lot more to be named.. thanks for your "advice".. LOL!!!

alright.. was s-u-p-e-r late for today kayaking course.. was too tired.. woke up at 7am and i went back to bed.. end up, i woke up at 7.45am and rished down to school.. it's like sper hard to hail a cab.. i keep changing side and guess what?? the moment i changed side, the taxi seems to be more on the other side.. wth.. =.= end up, i waited paitiently for the taxi to come.. yeah man. lols.. reached school at around 8.15am?? well, only 15 mins late ok? LOL.. everyone waited for me(so touched)..

reached there and start to kaya.. was damn tired and i feel like gaving up due to some PERSONAL problems.. i took my belongs and walked out of the storage, was abt t walked towards yulius, our instructor, and was stopped by a few group of ppl.. John, Tom, Desmond they all.. they were like saying:" berlin.. how can you go home?? how could you give up?? we waited for you in the morning leh.. waited for you to rushed down & now you want to go home?? you are leting us down you know a not??"

upon hearing these, i walked backed to the storage room and i cried.. i seriously wanted to go home back let and at the same time, i don't wan to let my friends down.. Yulius comforted me and asked me to stayed on for 2 more hours, i passed the test and i could go home.

so in the end i stayed.. akram was like so crazy.. he asked everyone to clapped for me.. LOL. +)

the current and wind was damn strong.. jerine and i spent most of our time on shore rather than going out t the sea ansd practice on our strokes and so.. we paddle out lots of time and was pushed back by the waves, and ended up on shore again for 3 times.. kys was like laughing at us luh.. so bad.. he help me emptied my kaya for 3 times. [:

the test was short and sweet.. in fact, it was actually quite easy. the moment yulius said "well done, you passed!" i felt a great sense of achievements.. WAHAHA! [:

ANW, LIN JING!!!! I PASSED MY TEST OK!! STILL SAY WHAT I COMFIRM WILL FAIL... :PppPPP

went chalet after that.. mr siva was like so............ arghh!! we want to go straight to pasir ris still want ask to call parents.. what the... and he damn "hao jie shao" dropped us at the expressway still tell us what here very easy to get taxi.. than in the end we waited for damn long..

while, i went for for bbq and games.. while playing "catching".. i fell.. damn embarrassing luh.. the game jus started and i'm the first to fall.. someone is fell into a big drain.. everyone was like staring at me ok!!.. and till now, the blood bleed non-stop.. cousin say that it's a big cut.. wth..

oh the way home, my cousin friend was like asking me,"hey, aint you the one that fell into the drain just now?"

and i said, "No, wrong person" x=

Friday, 16th march 2007 God will make a way there where there seems no way. Believe and trust in him. went for the youth edtion section today and brother tagged along.. I could sense the presense of God They talked abt Sinners, including back slider and so.. & one of my favourite chapter - LUKE 8:40-48 when eveyone was praying, i cried.. Pastor zhuang was like asking me to come to the front cause he saw me crying & i refused to cause everyone was staring..

sometimes, we wondered, " the world is so big, filled with millions and millions of people. Will the LORD ever find us?" The answer to it is a big YES. God love everyone and would saved all of us. He would rather save those with greater faith.. when our hands are dirty, we washed it with soap. when our hair are dirty, we washed it with shampoo. when we have SIN, nothing in the world can washed it away, except for the blood of Jesus.. your gifts might be small, maybe just a broken heart, some broken dreams or a life full of SIN, but he would still accepted all of it..

well, went to vivo after that.. shopped around and had dinner. went toysrus.

i wanted this spiderman toy badly.. buy for me leh.. hah!

yeah.. i'm BOB the builder.. LOL.. left eyes ultra sore. tsk tsk..

Thursday, 15th march 2007 went back to school for cheerleading.. the stunts were like so tsk.. luckily my group members didn't come so i don't really hav to train mcuh.. good good.. thanks to tys"comments", i have to become one of the flyers.. argghh!! whatever.. went town w him after than to get some stuff. saw muzz and a guy (forgot who).. yar!! haha.. everywhere we go, we saw the both of them.. uh huh.. hmmm.. & LOUSI LIM sucks for cheating our $200.. arghhh!!!!

well, that abt it..

GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: high! ]

& we are back tgt again. [:

hihi. [:
went town w qiupeng today.
i was late, as usual but this time is only a few mins late. i guess. =/
i managed to control the temptations of buying.. (:
just tt i brought a lot of foods to eat.. was damn hungry.. +)

hmmm.. went bac to school first for some filming things.. haha.. they want me to act as teacher.. wth.. i hate dss that sercurity guard can?? he's so like &%#$@ .. argghh!! yesterday, when he wasn't on duty i managed to get in the school by just saying i'm a dunearnite.. i just hate him.. don't like him.. don't like him.. don't like him.. =PpPPPP boooooossssssssssss........ ask me write my info all these i already damn frastrated.. than never bring ez link still keep questioning.. wan put cash cards also cannot.. is like he so damn irritating can?? late also his business... arghh!! don like him.. don't like him.. don't like him... arghh!!!!!!!!!!! shit him la.. holy i mean.. *ahem**

nvm, i should forgive him.. love for you enemies right?
oh sercurity guard, i love you so.. (like real)

in the end, we didn't film a single thing cause none was here yet.. waste OUR time going back to sch sia.. haha.. took cab down to town.. the taxi was like so damn long luh cause maybe beacuse its peak hour.. on the taxi, the uncle talked damn much luh.. qiupeng and i took turns to reply him.. yeah man.. i know it's interesting. thanks!

we headed to far east fast.. haha.. qiupeng wanted t get a pair of slippers cause her legs are in pain and she has plaster all over her leg.. so funny hur.. and oh yes.. i found a suitable skirt for the cheerleading thing and now i'm filled w sense of achievements.. tyty.. so proud of myself.. wahhahhahas..

went hereen, followed by wisma, cini, taka, plaza sing, lot 1 than home sweet home.
we took couple of neoprints today.. we took it at hereen and lot 1.. it's the first time i know tt neoprint can actually be infrared to the phones. a bit kuku i know..

hmmm.. at lot 1 we encountered a group of mad, insane cum crazy people. qiupeng said she know one of them but i don't know them at all..

that ****** guy is fucking irritating and insane. should not mention who incase he reads my blog.

neoprints. ^^

i love this 2 neoprints. (:

Top: love found
Bottom: our animal farm. [:

love that heart while you can.

2007-03-13T18:40:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: average =/ ]

woah.. i'm yellowish-- green.. [:

i currently feeling damn hungryyyyy!!!!!!!!!
waiting for mummy to come back home so that i got food to eat. :DDDDD

didn't went out w jerine they all today... was feeling damn sick in the morning..

went to lot 1 for lunch w bro today.. yea right.. we had LJS. [:

shopped around and i got my cousin her birthday present.. hah!! so thoughtful of me that i still rmb her birthday.. thank you thank you.. you are welcome(help you say).. LOL.. x)

benjamin is like so lame.. can someone please kill him for me.. he's freezing me with his stuipd cum lame talk(as usual).. oh gosh.. and now he keep asking me to buy a new wallet for him cause he need it.. WTH~~~!!!!

anw, going town w qiupeng tmr... (: i'm so excited.. cant wait.. [[[[[:

oh well, i'm off to dinner already.

CIAO!

2007-03-12T14:43:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: I SERIOUSLY NEED MORE SLEEP!!]

arghhh!!!!!!!! i'm sooo sooo sooo damn tired. back from camp a few hours ago.
musscle ache all over.
OUCH man!

there's something wrong w my thumb. hald of it is like numb and the other half is normal and sun brunt on the scalp. wth.

10-12 march prefects' camp, npcc camp, kayaking star 2.

Day 1
woke up at around 6 plus and went to eat breakfast w my mummy. [: haha.. than went straight to school to settle down and getting ready to go for the kayaking!!! hariz was like showing off to me his liverpool jersey and i said that he wasn't loyal enough cause it's an away jersey. haha!after that, went t meet tys they all for breakfast again! =.= yea. but i only order drinks. cannot eat so much if not ltr i capsized. hurhur.. hmmm.. the teacher was late today, qiupeng was late too.. luckily she managed to arrive before the bus leave.. cool leh.. lols.. we were separated into 3 different groups. qp. noella, sin rui and i in the same grp(group 1) while tys and tom in group 2. hah!

our instructor named yulius and he loved to repeat his name. LOL. initially, he keep calling me "pearline", "bernice" but in th end we still managed to correct him and now, he could say my name correctly.

nothing much on day 1 kayaking section, mostly brushed up on our star 1 skills. hahas. lalalalalalala.

our bus came at around 5pm. luckily i still managed to shower, just that the water drip very slowly that we had to take turned to bath. what the hell.. went out ti had our dinner.. sing-a-long section was cancelled and chg t amazing race. we run around like some kind of crazy ppl. hahas. linjing cycled me around the parade square.. soon yang sir saw and he was like sayin if a guy cycles a girl, most likely they would end up marrying each other. upon hearing it, i quickly jumped off from hte bike.. lols.. =.= had mac delivery at night.. andrew is like damn cheapskate luh.. he pretented to talk to us and when we ordering mac delivery, he ordered too.. ms tai paid for our food and end up also paying for his share.. wth.. so cheapskate hur..

Day 1, after star 2 kayahing, on the way back to school. qiupeng & me. [:

Day 2
take charge of PT in the morning.. yan ru is lie so damn fucking extra and irritating luh.. he suddenly come up and help me take charge of PT. and is like he could not do push ups and he still act smart and try to do.. end up everyone had to keep waitin for him to do finish his push up.. made all of us suffer w him. what the hell.. ryan said that i was damn fierce duirng the Pt section.. where got fierce??!! the breakfast was awful. te only thing which is nice is the hot dogs. (: haha.

went kayaking after that.. jerine and darlyene joined us today.. hahas.. hmmm.. we learnt how to capsized and come up by ourselves. haha.. the training after luch was a tiring one.. we paddle abt 4km against current and wind(towards indonesia) .. we like some kind of illegal immigrants but we are fully equiped.. managed to reach the destination but had a hard time coming back.. i got lost and sperated from the rest of the group luh.. my legs were cramp and i still trying hard to paddle.. i was praying damn hard that someone would rescue me luh.. ang guess what, after a few mins, there's this man came to recuse me and guess what?? sin rui and jerine were on the boat already.. they were slowly than me hur.. at first i tot that the person don't wan to save me and i kepp staring at the person.. LOl.. jerine keep calling my name from far.. than when i aboard, i told jerine maybe the person want to kinap us. LOL.. hmmm.. is it so embrassing when we reached shore, everyone was like staring at us and i can't swim.. sin rui. jerine and i.. we 3 can't swim.. than desmond and the instructor saved me.. damn embrassing luh..

bbq was a combined one.. with ncc.. hong hao sitting behind me is like keep helping me to cook.. so nice hur.. benjamin was there too. AHA! bbq, that when my thumb got the half numb sensezation thing.

Prefects' camp bbq - The Sec 4s.

a farewell party for miss ng. after dinner. we had some performances from some groups. haha. hmmm.. dong sheng was like so damn high even higher than me.. LOL.. we watched army daze. (: one of my fav show.. hahas. i fell asleep while watching.. too tired.. arghh!!! went to bath before sleeping and the water was damn cold.. lalalalala. blah blah.

Day3
woke up at 7.30 today.. no PT. which is good.. haha.. breakfast was super nice. what a bless man well, mostly area cleaning today.. didn't too much.. i keep using a safety pin to poke at the numb part of my thumb.. alif keep asking me to sing the linkin park "NUMB" song so that i would feel better. than i go tell him ltr from half thumb numb to the whole finger numb.. haha..

played monopoly with zul and hui han.. i damn unlucky.. ahha.. the first run i got into jail already.. sad.. haha.. but in the end i won ok.. hui han no $$$ left than gave up.. than zul end up paying me all his $$$.. hahas.. yes.. i won..

my money$$$. [:

went home w/o playing the games section.. my whole body is in pain.. terrible pain how could i still play..

anw, some other pics:

taken a few weeks ago during one of the npcc training.

wosh... so dark. =/

tag replies:
steph:D: heyhey. HELLO!! [[[[: will linked you asap. [:
adeline: hahas, LOVE!!! mr toh that time suan us.. wth..
Julius..++: hahas.. not sure leh.. the plant pot thingy flooder with water already.. yar... sorry DMs. AHAH!@!
ZH: yar lorx yar lorx.. my tamagotchi got posion luh.. hurhur..
qiupeng: yup.. wah.. you sound more and more like weixuan. +) LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!!

haha.. that abt it.. good bye.. i need to sleep already.. *faint**

2007-03-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: The Usual High!!!!!!!!!!!! ]

yo!

i'm using 2 mouses right now.. cause on of my mouse the left click is spoilt and the other one right click spolt. & i'm damn lazy chg to the new mouse so combined these 2 old mouses tgt and use.

well, Lesson quite slack today. [: the first five periods of the day, mostly arranging of files, followed by recess and 2 periods of physic. no phy test today. phew!! mr nick lee wore man utd jersey to sch today. wahahahhas & & during the contact time, i had a fun time disturbing hariz. hahas. i let him listen to the man utd song & i even sang for him. at first, he was thinking what song & when he heard " glory glory man utd" he asked me not to talk to him for the whole day and he swore not to use my calculator as it got the man utd sign on it. HAHA!!

went for sl meeting regarding abt the sec 3 camp after school. it's only a 15min breifing. HAHAHS!!!!!!!! after that, there this chi compo talk thing which is totally boring and nonsensical. mr koh keep saying abt don't know what " wen li wen li " thingy. wasn't really paying attention as we are eating at the back of the hall.

anw, my tamagotchi died today. =(((( sad.. it got poision.

went for npcc training after that. i brought full-u & PT-kit today. i'm a good girl. THANKS!

training today was tough.. lots of foot drills. training for speech day.. there's a PC tried out today.. while i was saying the command, my voice turn out to be ultra high pitch. i don't know why. it screwed out everything i guess!! arghh.. dream trash.. kabooom****

tys got sabo to shout he got menstration to the sec 1 cause he lied that he had one. LOL. he's going to skin me alive if he saw this. hah!!

games section after that. tys and i super self motivated high and we scream and shouted loudly, like some insane people, act as if we are very interested in playing the games. firstly, the fireman thingy, which is like captain on the deck.. it reminded us how we played during 2 years ago npcc camp, how tys and i pushed cadman away and even tough we won the game, we end up doing forfit. i betrayed tys and wen yan & i got my retribution back. i betrayed them by pang seh them and joined other group. i was out of the game not long after they were out.

LOL. +)

harrison and another guy, think is ye shun got forfited cause they won.. wahahhahahas.

hmmmm.. second game, the dog and bone. i paired up w tys. our shoe laces are tied tgt and we hoped around like a fool. soon yang keep giving out money. we were damn motivated when he put $10 note in the middle. tys and i keep hopping to the centre to get the money. we hopped to the centre no matter what number soon yang sir called out as we forgot our number. LOL. haha.. the first round we won but they say not counted cause whatever number soon yang sir called we also come out. LOL.

berlin arh.. your drills standard drop!!!! please wake up your ideas.. hello.. now i'm reflecting on it ok.. some things you said is partly ture and partly unture. i do take pride as an NPCC cadet. arghhh!!!!!!!!! and my attendence is full and i never fall out throughout my npcc life luh. oh come on luh..

well, whosh.. there are lots of activites going on on 10-12th march- kayaking star 2, npcc camp & prefect camp and i'm attending all 3..

i'm hav spilt myself equally so that everything woundn't clash tgt. [:

for npcc camp(10*11th) , i'm attending for the sing-a-long, and Pt section as i incharged of both.

oh man! PT. arghh!!!!

the rest of mt time i'm spending on kayaing(9am to 5pm) and prefects' camp.

well, it would be abit stressful but nvm.. i scarifised ok.. had to wake up aas early as 5 plus for the PT section at around 6..

can anyone help me packed my bag and send me to school tmr?? i'm very lazy to packed and bring all the stuff to school. arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anw, those who are interested to go out and study during the march hols please do let me know. thanks!! [:

ok, i'll stop here.. will be back on monday. (:

GOODBYE!!!!

2007-03-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: SCREAMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]

hello.. i feel like scremaing right now. ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

normal school days blah blah blah..

we had math test during the tutorial section. arghhh!!! i minus 5 marks already cause i don't know how do do 2 qns. wo de tien arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just feel like writing this. hah!

"I know you’re in pain. I know you are hurting like mad now. You can’t go to school. But i tell you one person that knows this more than I do. And i guessed you know it too,because i’ve been talking about him: Jesus. Whatever pain you feel, he feels too. Whatever hurt, sadness, depression you feel, it wells his eyes. Whatever despair you feel, he’s reachin’ out. It doesn’t take much. Not a warrior to draw his spear and sword, not a pastor to give a speech, but it just takes you to pray, and ask, and it will be given. Seek and you will find. And God is the answer. And you will find comfort. Because not of his majesty, but his love for you, YOU, and me that brought him to death. It’s his love that enabled him to feel he pain you feel now, his love that make him feel the sadness you feel now. He’s right there, waiting for you, standin’ by the door, outside the window, really ready to reach out his hand. But he can’t. Because he gave you the choice. It just take a prayer to ask, and it will be given. Where is God? He’s a prayer away.”

2007-03-07T17:44:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: self motivated HIGH!!! ]

**edited**

hi. [:

i'm currently feeling damn HIGH and i don't know why. i didn't drink orange juice ok??!! LOLs!!

i can't believed that i actually failed my physic (though actually for this test i expected already cause section C no time to do finish.) the marks is half of my chemistry mark. LOL.

physic--->10/25
chemistry--->20/25

argghhh!! nvm. my A-math improved!!!

i got 20/20.. so proud of myself. (:

had physic in the morning, followed by double period of chi & math. still rmb that "zao lao shi" confiscated my sweets!!!!!! argghhh!!! my sweets. =(((((

5 periods of DNT after recess.. blah blah blah.. followed by phy tutorial after school..

~~would upload pics in the near future as photobucket site is currently under maintaince. yeh right...~~

took pics w adeline during dnt & mr toh caught us. he was like, " yar, take take take. very nice. very nice. take again" LOL!!!!~~~~

love love & me. (:

i'm serious very pround of my drawing even though it looks like some kind of kindergarden kids drawing. THANKS! =.=

nice right. like pumpkin meh??

Isaac sir is evil... he said my drawing like some kind of holloween pumpkin.. LOLs!!!!!

whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, that's abt it for today & i'm feeling DAMN HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yesterday, TUESDAY, 6 march 2007 hmmmm.. normal school day. & assembly was damn lame. abt some kind of bully or don't know what. wasn't paying attention. =x.

should skipped those normal lesson.

mr kaan said that he's wife is looking for me cause i made spoilt his remote controller for the tv one. he also said that many made spoilt but i'm the only one that got caught. wth.. hello. it was akram that spoilt it ok?! not me not me. i didn't even touched the controller.. arghh!!!

Labin good luh.. didn't come to school today. it supposed to be jis week to sweep the floor, end up he didn't come and i hav to sweep again. wth...

the ppl at the back of the class was like damn irritating. purposely call my name for fun. what the.. wen jin was damn lame luh.. this is what he said, " berlin! good job, good job, sweep here. yar. good job. i will ask your supervisor to promote you. don't worry.." WTF!!!!!!!!!

no tutorial today, which is good. LOL!!

had that cheerleading thing after that. =.= sad. i asked daniel to put me all the way behind so that no one could see me.. yea!!

yong sheng vaymond, tom & me. we kep making a fool out of oursleves. by doing the wrong step, turned the wrong direction, stepped on ppl leg etc. like a fool. LOL!!

hahas.

& oh yes. they made a rule saying those who skipped detention for guys would be cane, for girls would be suspend. luckily that time i went. (: lol..

that's abt it for tues.

GOODBYE!!!!!!!!

till next time. :DD

WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON

2007-03-04T11:52:00.000+08:00

[current mood: [: ]

Manchester United won yesterday match!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yayyy!!! (:

well, went t mr kaan's house yesterday. Sin Rui was 1 hour late!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =.=

Deeviya & ru jun waited for her at CCK mrt station while i waited for them at JE mrt station.
jerine, noella & akram meet us later as they need to go to school. yeah right.

meet up w siew yee & chu jun they all at clementi mac.

went almost everyone reached already, we headed to mr kaan's house. it's abt 5-10 mins walked. aghhh!!! the weather was damn hot and we sweated.

mr kaan oder a mini buffet for us & the food was super yummy!!! :DDD

mrs kaan was a very nice lady. hah!!

we played blackjack (baluck) ^^

lin jing was nice for "sponsering" me. lols. i lost a total of $11.

i smiled untill so .......

it rained heavily. actually we(hariz, akram, noella, jerine, ru jun, sin rui & me. :DD) wanted to go west coast but end up we stayed at the void deck and play "what is the time mr/mrs wolf" and "iceman" . hah! repriving childhood. had lot of laughter especially when we played iceman. sin rui stuck at the stairs there so DAMN FUNNY. whahahahahhas!!!

lin jing called me ltr on us me whether want to go marina w them. i didn't go cause it was raining so damn heavily.

The followings pics show a few children got stucked up there and cannot get down due to the heavy rain. WAHAHAHAS!!!! damn funny luh. they were like saying they want to play "home" and then all og them run towards the shelter thingy and it started to rain heavily and they could not get down. hahahahahs!!! omg!!! i;m getting evil. =x

see, they are stucked. (:

5 mins later, they were still stucked. HAHA!

still stucked,

& finally, they are rescused! LOL. +)

& they went home.

LOL. went they rained stop, we went queensway. shop around w hariz while the rest went to the arcade. hariz and i keep talking abt gold, white and ~~orange~~ stuff. hahas. shoped around 1 hr plus and we went home.

went home w akram. we keep going to the wrong bus stop. all the bus stop don't hav 105. is like so damn embrassing as we keep walking passed the queensway shopping centre and the ppl at mac keep staring at us. bet they mus be thinking we crazy or what. keep walking pass there. LOL! ended up, we took a taxi t clementi interchange, from there we took 188. LOL!!

ate steamboat at some where around clementi(i forgot the stall name) with my family they all. hahas. the food was DAMN nice. (:

well, that abt it luh. (:

GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2007-03-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

ello ppl (:

i made -

i'm here to update (obviously) -_-"

had been super busy and high lately,

&& peer tutoring daily.

well, march holidays is coming soon but i guess it aint any better. i'm fully packed during the march hols. Prefect Camp (10-12 march), Npcc Sec 1 orentation Camp(10th-11th) & Kayaking Star 2 course(10th &11th). it all clashes. *bang bang bang*** i wonder how am i going to spilt myself into 3 parts.

HOLY SHIT!!!~~~~

Os level is getting nearer everyday. 7 more months?? but chi paper is starting at around 26th may?? drop dead. =.= i really gonna do my best. the fees for it is $370, which is considered quite cheap already as compared to other classes.

oh yes, ATF!! i'm looking forward to it. I CANT WAIT TO GO!!!!!!!! ATF!!!!!!!!!!! we won't be going with area 19 (sad) due to speech day. arghh!!!!!!!! ATF... ATF... ATF... (:

school is short today, without peer tutoring. (:

had npcc after that. =.= we played some games- treasure hunt. run around and sweat like fuck. my group was super enthu &&& yong sheng and wei xuan was in my group. they are part of the reasons why my group is super high. actually wei xuan and i cheated. we changed our group. =x. the blind folding game was damn stupid as i got tricked. Damn*

we are going to mr kaan house tomorrow.

1st March 2006, Thursday blah blah blah & blah. normal thursday. had math peer tutoring. i'm feel so honoured that i still know how to do trigo & i can teach. Amazing!! so proud of myself. hah!!! had prefect meeting after that. the checking of attire was like wow?! damn strict. cannot wear hipster, skirt mus be at the waist level, no coloured socks/shoes. i falied the spot checked, is like WTF?! actually most of the sec 4 girls prefect their attire failed. they said that constance is a good example for us to followed. WTF.WTF?! so whatever. went detention after that, with sin rui. before i went, sin rui was there with po yi. she told me that jus now very "pek cek", facing po yi doing nothing. LOL. x) around 6 went home. yar, whatever, that abt it.

i'm involved in the sec 3 camp. same group as wei quan and nizza. +)

lalalalalalalalas~~~

&amp;amp;amp;amp;& if you are hungry, think of all kinds of food you would like to eat, it makes you feel damn good.

wahahahahahahas!!!!!!!

oh well, till next time.

CYA !!!

2007-02-24T15:15:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: feeling GOOD (: ]

alright. i'm kinda free now so shall do a 'proper' post.

oh well, we going to mr kaan house on 3rd march (: hah!!

i'm sooooooo damn tired can. ltr going go make new specs. hahs! had a hard time finding specs yesterday. all the specs seems too big for me. OMG!!!!!~~~~

had already hand in the analysis of theme for dnt and now i felt a sense of relieve. however, there's still much to go.. the exploration of ideas and so. T.T.

wo de tien arh!!!!

LOLs!! =.=

I AM SOO HAPPY. (:

i wanna thanks that person who stole my CME book. is like a BIG thank you luh. you stole it and i don't need to do. (save time!) thanks a lot!!! but i need to buy a new book. sad luh. T.T i never write anything ( not even my name) on it. it's a brand new book ok. now it's lost. lmao.

I NEED MORE SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

keep waking up late these few days. luckily, i managed to take the last bus. phew!! labin said he saw me on 188 bus. he's on bus 187, which is beside my bus yesterday morning. lmao. had adam khoo talk thingy yesterday. melvin was the speaker. (: cool! hah!

alright, it's raining now but the weather is so fucking hot luh. werid hur.

about 3 days ago, i took the wrong bus luh. it's so embarrassing. sad. instead of taking bus 188, i took 176. at first, i was wondering why no dunearn people on the bus. than i saw a lot of hillgrove people and i started to realised that i brought the wrong bus. >.< feeling damn pai seh, i alright at the next stop and wait for bus 188. =.= LOL!!

i love that funny thing that chujun tell me about the small kid that fell into the drain than struggling to come out. but his bag damn big, so he keep struggling to come out but can't. hahahahahahahs!!!! untill now i still laughing. LOLS! i think it's funny and cute ok. oh well, i know i'm evil to laugh at this incident.

bye!

till next time. (:

updated photo blog @ http://hardcoreloves.livejournal.com/ (:

2007-02-21T17:25:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: stressed up** ]

hello. yup. HAPPY CNY people!! (: hah!

these gonna be a real quick and real short post. hahas. gonna chiong dnt already. tmr need hand up untill analysis of theme. arghh!! need a lot of touched up on my folio. holy shit. xuete!!!

will do a p-r-o-p-e-r post when i'm free.

actually i post just to make my blog seem more ALIVE rather than DEAD. LOL!!

oh well, that's abt it.

Bye.

updated photo blog @ http://hardcoreloves.livejournal.com/ (:

2007-02-17T18:44:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: damn full ; happy ; excited!! (: ]

i'm here to update. if not SOMEBODY say i'm lazy again. (:
well, had pretty much to update. =/

anw, happy chinese new year eve people. (:

well, just finsh eating reunion dinner and now i'm bloated. damn full.

i'm going china town ltr. hah!

it's only chinese new year eve and i had already received 2 ang baos. hahahahahahs. (: from my DADDY & GRANDFATHER.

16 february 2007, FRIDAY GONGXI RAYA celebration today. we had half day. had lesson for the first 4 periods. all math. yar. but we only had lesson for the 1st 2 periods only. and than mr beh bring us to the com lab. yup. cause most ppl from our class involved in the concert performance. around 10?? than mr beh was like saying only 30 ppl in the class teach what?? LOL! haha. had a fun time playing water. wa lao. i kana all the water luh. boyfriend tot ru jun pushing the door so as they opened the door, she pour all the water on me. wth. =.= hahas. blah blah blah blah. the concert was kind boring, the only thing i looked forward to was THE CHEERLEADING! yupx.

went JP after that. went t meet my family. (: hahas. boyfriend also going thr t meet her mum. so we went thr tgt. yup.

had a new haircut. >.<

15 february 2007, THURSDAY well, eyes was damn sore & red today. don't know why. LOL!! a math test was alright. (: i can do ok. thank you thank you! had a fun time making fun of constance. cause mr beh didn't come today and jun hao take over our class as a relief teacher. he is an RT in dunearn now. cool huh... sorry. i seriously had very serious STM. i forgot what happened already. yeah. =.= only knew that i was late today, & you know what?? they still waited for me to pull the flag. is so WTF right?! LOL!!! whatever.... tutorial w pwei qi was fun. we managed to complete half of the paper within 1 hr which was amazing. we were hardworking! thanks! hah! we also keep saying that we no need sin rui already. LOL!!

14th february 2007, WEDNESDAY HAPPY VALETINE'S day people (:

firstly, a very BIG thank you to all my friends. LOVE YOU ALL SOOO SOOO MUCH!! (:
received so much present today. chocolates ; sweets; cookies & many more. can't resist the temptation of eating. :DDD

i ate in class. hoho!

i LOVE the giv given by brenden. it's a so called "flower" made of straw. so nice. it's small but nvm, IT'S the thoughts that counts. (: hah!!

had 2 tests today - physic & math. from here, we can conclude that teachers love to giv us test on valetine's day. yea right.

had a math test tmr. LOGARITHUM!! - the killer topic. KABOOM!!! i gonna passed the test ok!! i'm study damn hard for it. yea. i know i'm hardworking. THANKS!! "you are welcome!" (help you all reply) LOL!!

alvin li rocks. he teaches me math. (:

these few days. went out to shop for clothes & shoes.

brought a new adidas shoe $100+++ , a new pair of slipper which cost $49.9, a new dress & a lot more luh.

oh well, tht abt it.

gtg.

GOODBYE all!!!! (((((:

2007-02-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: high!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~ ARGHH!! ]

firstly, sick and pervertic people should be ingored!! boo shit luh.
today was good. (:
have learnt one new word call " xue te" LOL!!
xue te xue te xue te..
LMAO!

woke up pretty late today and rushed to school. the damn bus was also late. xue te! LOL!! haha. managed t reached sch on time to pulled the flag. argh!! got double morning duties- book keeper & flag bearer. wth. book keeper. first time doing it i don't know wth t do luh. ethey say what every morning mus sit in front of the parade square w all those people tt don't hav books. don't know luuh.

&& oh yes! it was the first time in my life that i'm pulling the school flag. some more i'm not trained to pull the school flag. wth! thanks t hasif. he is totally not trained to do the pulling of flag. LOL!!!

this month duties were like SO NICELY PLANNED hur.. =.=

was asked t stay back after school t do the chinese "zhou ji" thingy luh. wth. stupid lao zhao. don't let me go for prefect meeting!!!~~~

went for np after that. trained the kuku sec 1s. paired up w wei xuan. they keep calling us teacher. wth.

the whoever(forgot his name) took this.

yayy!! wei xuan gonna pick flowers for me! (: lols!! = . =

i'm going broke soon. in fact, i'm already broke. ARGHH!!!! don't care.
had been sneezing for the past 2 hours.. omg~~
chatting w ryan chan my geog buddy (: now. he is teaching me some ways to cure sneezing.. kinda interesting.

geog test that we had yesterday was like totally ruined! ryan and i wrote lots and lots of rubbish. hah!

I LOVE CHEESECAKE!!! love love love****

I LOVE HAAGEN DAZS!
just finised eating one tub of it. yummy!!!~~

got seriously inspired by my cousin post!! hah!!

Only the losers win. They really have nothing to prove they don’t give a care about success, popularity, winning, money

wow, really sounds like a loser huh?

That’s because he has surrendered everything. everything to God he takes his house, his car, his money in his back account, his social status, his ceo position at work, his plans ahead, his life. and shouts out " LORD, these things are not mine, they are now yours." and gives them away, just wanting to humbly follow Jesus

now he has nothing to prove, nothing to lose, cause he has surrendered everything!

why surrender all this? its so fantastic! money, popularity, success, winning. well simply cuz we cant serve 2 gods. these things only tie us down, chain us up, and prevents God from working even more in our lives.

he knows real riches are not found here. money is just green paper. social status is just an imaginary ladder to make the "higher" feel burdened and the "lower" feel inferior. everything is meaningless to him. cause its not eternal. he has nothing, but with God, he has everything. while if u have everything, but without God, that’s nothing.

surrender is really giving everything u have, everything u care about - school, work, passions, plans, money and giving them to God, and let God use them, or to lead us in those areas in our life. cause God knows best. His plan is perfect. we can be totally confident in following Him!!!

Whenever I post something like that, it’s not really to tell the world about this, but also to remind myself. Cause I’ve definitely been guilty of non surrender, and flirting with worldy things. No-more. From now on, I’m a loser. I have nothing, and nothing to prove. I may have to surrender back to God everyday, or even 50 times a day, but ill still do it

some may think, if being a Christian means giving up so much, why the heck should I be one? As I said above, one who has everything but no God has nothing. Everything is meaningless here; because it’s all not gona go with you to the grave. And only through surrendering everything, do u start feeling the joy of life without life weighing you down.
And actually. When you surrender everything, God actually provides in your life. Money, possessions. And usually. People, who surrender all to God, have attractive personalities, because they don’t try to prove anything, or put up walls between themselves. most of all, they shine with Gods love (:
but of course, u cant do it for the above reasons. cause ur still tied down to the chains, as your motives are still worldy. That’s not surrender

think about it "I've got a contract pending on eternity"
we don’t belong here on earthour reward aint here
our home aint here
so just lose everything here (:

2007-02-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: feeling good! :D ]

yo!

i'm blogging now cause i just feel like blogging. so think it gonna be a short and quick post.

feeling kinda good today.
just that was feeling a bit tired and sleepy, was like half dead, half asleep throughout the day.
hahas.

as usual, a boring monday. the only good thing abt it was that it start school at around 8.20am. :D had to do some stupid announcement today. yea. thanks to Timothy Dorville! amazing! i could spell his name. WAHAHAHAHAS!

& you know what. i realised that i would get damn high after drinking orange juice. cool! hahas.
so ppl, drink more orange juice and get SUPER high. :D

anw, i passed my math test! hah! i'm so happy luh can. no need to go for re-test. weets~~

had english peer tutoring after school and it was damn slack. :D end off at around 3.45pm. actually today wanted t go town w rj but ended up didn't go. we tmr than go. (:

well, saw fake darren's blog by OUCH! yeah. ouch. hahas. all his post was like fuck here, fuck there, fuck everywhere that kind. LOL! spoilt the impression. totally diffrent form darren sam.

KaBoom!! hah!

that's about it luh!

GOODBYE!!!! =D

2007-02-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: bored!! ]

different kinds of leaders in Four Express Four :D:D:D

Ah, now i'm feeling super bored. =(

ok, morning was screwed up. almost late for school. Thanks to my bro's beret. (should not elaborate abt it!!) yea right. woke up late today cause don't intent t g t sch today. had fever and serious cough yesterday. ended up i was feeling ok and fine so went to school. yar.

School's alright. (:
had chinese tutorial after sch, followed by sl meeting & npcc.
Sl meeting was damn long luh.. end at around 3 plus nearly 4.
& oh yes, i got back those spare photos of mine. =.=

Had parents meeting in the evening. just reached home not long ago. Luckily mr beh and mr toh didn't complain abt me. hah!! was like, "shit luh, sure complain that i talk a lot" but it ended up the other way round- they didn't complain. :D **woots~~

i'm so hungry now. =( skipped lunch and didn't eat much for dinner. Arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~

oh well, till next time. :D

2007-01-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: hyper! ]

dnt dnt & dnt.

hello!! I LOVE DNT!!! i need to constantly tell myself how much i love dnt (even though it's not ture). cause it's all in the mind. so yeah. I LOVE DNT!!!!!!!!!!!!

class had been super cold these few days.

the world had changed. it supposed t be hot these few days & yet it turn out t b super cold. Ryan told me because it is due to gobal warming blah blah blah. people form e1 are indeed e1s. LOL!!

well, school was good today. (: had so much fun and laughter especially what chan did during PE. it was like so OMG!! sin rui saw the whole process. wahahahhahahas. we also had randomly guess the reason why he managed t grow so tall.

hahahahahaha!!!!!!

hmmm.. recess was fun either. ate a super lot though i keep remainding myself that i need to save $$$$$$ !!!!!!!!!

SS lesson. we had test. i wrote nonsense. whatever. haha. the date and year all messed up. hah! hariz wrote more than me. jealous** hahas.

that about it. hah! jus posted for fun cause i'm getting real bored w DNT!!! uh no. I LOVE DNT I LOVE DNT I LOVE DNT!!!!!

GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

2007-01-27T15:07:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: self motivated HIGH ]

daughter(yu ting) & mummyyyyy(berlin) !!! after cross country, hair s-u-p-e-r messy. hey. spot hariz behind yu ting. he's eatin! lols!!

yesterday, cross country. didn't get into top 20s. hah! get into top 30 instead. lols!!! run too slow already. lols. nvm. ran with love love, sinr, YU TING! (: hahas. i mus really admit that i have short legs. real short. arghh!! nvm..

Bertrand & Joel are evil. EVIL for laughing at love love & me for not getting into top 20s. arghh!!!!!!

had 4 period of math in the morning. the only lesson we having is math. yupx. than after that had NYAA thingy. all the events and activities i any how write.

went to play pool after that. yeah. so didn't take the so called "school bus" or bus transport whatever you call them, to turf city.

tian hang and yi sheng came to support me. hurhur. tian hang so touching arh. from toh pa yo (don't how to spell) all the way come down to turf. hurhur.

blah blah blah. it rained and so. went to play lan after that. saw kah leong they all again! it's the 4rd time i saw them today. lalalalala. was losing in dota. but i managed to keep killing tian hang cause he don't know how t play! lols.

that about it luh. lazy t blog already. hah!!

my brother took this. LOL!!!

2007-01-21T12:20:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: average. ]

hi. i'm watching service online. it's ending in a few mins time. ok. for some reasons n promises, i could not go t church. it made me realise how much i miss church, how much i miss my cell group, how much i miss city harvest. sigh! T.T i even miss bible study, oh man!

i'm know god will always be with me and i would always shine for him.
i need the breakthrough!!

alright. last sunday, darren sam had left spore to australia. he migrated there. sad right!! i would miss this "love love" of mine. hurhur. seriously, i would miss him luh.

anw, cross country this coming friday. i'm gonna get into top 20s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghh!!!!!!

every since the first day i'm w city harvest, i fell in love with this song. & and i fnd it suitable for me, during the cross country race! hah!

i think the tittle is called stepped out. (:

stepped out

i got a dream
straight from heaven

gonna run my race
win my prize

jesus my redeemer
put a holy fire within me.

(hey hey hey)

aint no gaint
gonna walk on my land

aint no city
can't be saved

i'm stepping out
i'm breaking out
i'm shaking all the fears off me

(hey hey hey)

i'm not ashamed
to lift my hands my praise.

all hell trembles
as i proclaim his name

i'm on fire
testifying

i'm on fire
prophesying

i can feel his power
pouring down on me

i'm on fire
i got the holy ghost on me (x 3)

2007-01-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: super high! ]

hello!! hahas. i've got my staff sergeant rank and some badages yest. weets** i'm so damn happy luh can?!? haha. and the feeling of wearing that rank is like "WOW!!!". hahahas. it has a

national camp badage s-u-p-e-r nice. I'M LOVIN IT!

should skipped school lessons all these luh. ahahs.

well, new sec 1s came to join us already. the total strength for today is 27. haha. had a hard time teaching them what's "sedi...A" and "senadiri". oh whatever! i don't know how to spell. HAH!

as usual, my group combined w tys group. lmaorofl. stupid tys luh. keep calling me berlin sir! LOL!!

wei xuan and i throughout today training keep saying " we are in the same class for 4 years and we are friends for 4 years" LOL!

haha. hmmm. it rained after training. lin jing, wei xuan, wen yan sent me t bus stop after training! so nice of them.

wei xuan keep complianing that i very "ma fan", means troublesome in chinese. and he also said " since we are friends for 4 years it's ok that i sent you to bus stop. " LOL!

haha..

that's about it for today.

oh well, recalling**

18th january 2007

quite a lot of people absent today. to be exact around 8 absent?! LOL.

didn't really bring much books cause they changed a new timetable and we aint aware of it. yea right.

during geog, we had test. i did it by myself ok! lols. so amazing. i just anyhow write and all my answers are supre damn long. cool. ltr all wrong. LOL!

had photo taking after recess. i had 2 shots. haha. after taking the 2nd shot, dimir n wei xuan was like keep laughing cause the 1st shot and the 2nd one doesn't had much different. LOL. i laughed w them. LOL!

15-17th january 2007 // monday till wednesday.

ADAM khoo workshop. okies.

Learned a lot of things during these 3 days "day camp". the trainers are Amin, Melvin & Leroy. they are all kinda fun and funny people. full of jokes. especially melvin, the most dramatic one. hah! I've kinda know where i want to go after my Os. i understand and have found what's my purpose in life!! (: my Goals. my Dreams. have also learnt the proper way of studying. the 10 way study formula. it also made me understand how lucky to have such a nice parents that buy whatever things which i want (though some of them i didn't really use or perhaps never use or wear before). somethimes i buy things just for the sake of buying. oh gosh!! i'll never take my parents for granted anymore.

it also remind me how lin jing saved my life, when they said who had almost died before. hah!

faith & beliefs really played a big role in our lives. (:

I love you dad & mum.

Love the heart that hurts you but never hurt the heart that loves you

2007-01-10T17:53:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: i'm so happy!]

hello!! hihi!! ni hao!! Good evening!!

yupx. backed to blogging. ok. no choice have to use come cause need do dnt stuff. HA. excues. ahem** oh. whatever luh.

ok. firstly, i've gotten my O lvl dnt question paper. yeah right. it's so danm hard can. the topics is already like so chim already. oh gosh! T.T SOMEBODY PLEASE KILL ME!!!!!!!!!! =x cannot cannot. life is meaningful. (: i'm sure i can overcome this cause i have god with me. (:

cross country on the 26th january 2006!! (: LOL! mus support me k?? thanks.

i failed the probability test by 1/2 mark n mr beh refused to give me that 1/2 mark. i took re test today n think the results would be much more worst than the previous test. maybe need go for another re re test. hurhur. shit luh.

yi sheng gave me a bible from he school. haha. he so cheapskate luh he. hahas.

my school have one "fake" darren. LOL!! he look s-u-p-e-r like daren sam. that's why he's called fake darren cause i don't know his name. hur hur.

mr kaan actually kinda nice luh. haha. & he's lesson is always so interesting that it never fail to make us laugh. haha. he told us about the kind of people who are under the "USELESS" group. he also tell us abt some teachers. LOL!! upon hearing what he told the 3 of us (ru jun, sin rui and i) about the teachers thiny, we laughed non stop. HAHAHA! (:

oh well, god is really good. he knows what i really need. he answered to my prayers leaving me with no worries. && i finally comprehened these verses. (:

for the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly father knowns that yo need them. but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day have enough troule of its own.

--Matthew 6:32-34

i have faith in you, my Lord.

alright, stop here. lazy to blog already.
bye!! (:

2007-01-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: average! :/ ]

had a funny or should i say weird dream last night. i suddenly dreamt of a lot of high heels. this giagantic shopping mall i went to only sell high heels, all costing at $108 each. LOL!! so interesting right?? i know i know. think i'm having serious heels fever. LOL!! (:

now chatting w benjamin n he is so irritating. he was saying long time no see, all these thingy to me and when i was abt t reply, his status suddenly set to away. dumbass! HA. argh! sieg ask me go jump down. T.T. LOL!!

my fringe is too short. the uncle cut too short la. arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tmr need go sch again. but one good thing is that we reached school at 8.20am. cool!!

ok, i would briefly blog abt the happenings during cca.

5th january 2007 almost late for school today. bro went for camp than i not use so never woke up late luh. i'm one of those ppl that stand at the school gate thr n sing the "marikita", national atheme. was late n yi sheng take cab down n fetch me t sch. HA. so nice of him hur. lols. met fu qin on the way so we g sch tgt. think yi sheng is the one that late for school instead of us. LOL. boyfriend they all thought i went for prefect duty. LOL!! brought a damn big plastic bag to school, so auntie can?? lols. blah blah blah. had our math test already. hopefully can pass luh, don't feel like going for the re-test n tutorial section. && i realise something, i meet yi sheng almost everyday since school re-opened. lols. hahas.

had lunch w boyfriend n her band friends. yep. hahas. than fall in at 2pm. lols. cca day, as usual, a boring n tiring one luh. haha. but this year was quite fun la, i could say. cause i walk around, promoting NPCC w a guy who claimed t be my senior. LOL. anything luh hur. lols.

lols. that's abt it.

goodbye! LOL!!

2007-01-07T17:36:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: average!]

hello!
i realised that i forgot to post abt the thanksgiving party on the 30th december 2007. hahas. so, i should post it here. (:

30th december 2007 ok. the chalet was at Changi Aloha Chalet. took cab thr. the taxi driver reched there and he don't know where is Chalet k. so yi sheng n i climbed the hill, waled around, and we took another cab to chalet k. this kind driver didn't charge us cause the chalet k is just 100m away. ahem*** lols. hahas. know a new friend which also play dota but i forgotten his name. =x. lols. hahas. the chalet was next to the old changi hospital. lols. we had steamboat for our dinner. hahas. the dinner was nice cause i cooked it. we keep calling boon siang m"maria" cause he keep helping us to take drinks n he also won the servanthood award luh. hahas. after dinner, during to much curiousity, qi yin, janet, yi sheng n i, we went to the old changi hospital. it is only 6 plus plus n it very dark already. we didn't really go in cause it's kinda scary. lols. but we did walked around the building. i keep reminding myself that i got the holy sprit n should overcome my fears but i'm still scared can. lOLs. lols. overrall, kind fun la. managed t know a lot of new friends from other cell group. hahas.

that abt it.
i'm off for dinner. (: HA!
god bless all!

2007-01-03T18:58:00.000+08:00

[mood meter: back to school--]

oh well, school started already and i haven really enjoy myself. HA. but nvm.

i need a new school bag cum new pencil case. it was like sch re-open and i prepared nothing. lmao.

first day of school, so far so good. mr kaan is our new form teacher. mr beh still our math teacher and zhao lao shi still ur chinese teacher. in short, almost all our teacher remain the same. LOL!! our class is now all the end of third level. and i'm sitting w hariz and constance beside me. HA. hur hur. during morning assembly, i stand up went mr eric low say sec 3 stand up. this is so embarrssing ok. i really need to get used to ppl calling us sec 4s.

we have homework to do on the first day already and i wonder how the rest of our days in this "O" level life will be. i can already feel that kind of stress. oh man!

stayed back in school for a while t do the banners thingy cause this coming fri cca day. meet up w yi sheng after that for lunch. went holland V thr to eat then we saw darren. LOL. hahas.

well, that's about it.

good bye!

2007-01-01T17:16:00.000+08:00

happy 2007 everyone. (:

HELLO!! weets** my very first post of the year. HAHAHA. went town to count down w the same people as the christmas countdown just that this time round, darren didn't come and wilson, glenn, and 1 more (forgotten his name) joined. lols. reached home around 2 plus plus in the morning.. we went esplanade at first but it was damn packed so we changed our venue to the singapore river instead. didn't really hear ppl counting cause it was seriously too soft. the fireworks over thr was nice. hahas. after that went mac to eat our super n ben called. sorry that i mistaken you as jethro cause they trick me that they were some one else a few hours ago. real sorry. hahas. william, jet they all so NICE hur. pang seh me than they end up playing pool at cini leaving me at esplanade. WTH~ saw a bag and i'm dying to buy it. oh man. mus control.

2006 has passed and now is a brand new 2007!! this also means that school starting soon. (:

my 2007 visions:

- be more commited and closer t cg.
- financial breakthrough. (i need more $$$$)
- do well for Os.
- stop using too much com.
- stop having too much temptation.

still rememer i also did this the previour year, time flies real fast. haha. firstly, i feeling damn relive n i mus really thank god cause i promoted to sec 4e & it's not advance promoted. phew! haha. i also wanna thanks GOD for letting me to know so many GREAT friends like grace, noella, jerine, adeline and many more to be named. and of cause not forgetting the stupid DUMB DUMB, yi sheng. i also learned t hav more faith in god that he would take away all my worries and fear. Amen to that! well, want to travel my 2007 year faith jounery w holy sprit in me and of course not forgetting god. i really love my family as they never fail to let make me smile and they are always there when i needed them the most.

i had made a decision wrongly and i sweared i would not do it again.

oh well, anw god blessed a great GREAT year ahead. (:

2006-12-29T20:39:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: hungry!!! ]

heyhey. :DD
hahas. finally i can log in to blogger n blog & i'm kinda happy about it. i don't know why. well, can't log in yesterday due to the stupid connection.

chatted w dumb dumb in the morning. HA.

anw, i had finally brought my school books n my uniform. HA. brought it on the 26th dec and after that, saw girlfriend around JEC thr w her sis if not wrong. hahas.

tmr thanksgiving party & i can't wait to go to the chalet. i'm sooo excited. xDD

school reopen in like 5 days time ? ?

*yawns**~~ i'm very very sleepy n tired.

i'll stop here luh.

2006-12-25T16:39:00.001+08:00

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! XDD

HOHOHOHOHOHOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so happy these few daes.

woke up early in the morning , went vivo again.. actually wanted to go for church service in the morning but didn't go in the end cause i'm 5 mins late already =x. now i'm seriously regret for not going. i really wanna go. :'( haha.took bus 188 n it was like totally packed w people luh & some just keep pushing and pushing. damn irritating. saw wei quan n celine. lols. hahas. i treat my family lunch at vivo. spend quite a lot of $$$ but nvm, since it's christmas. haha. yi sheng came to vivo to find me but we didn't managed t meet each other. lols. shop shop shop. he end up go thr play pool w his friends. LOL. well, stp here. haha. going out soon.

24 december 2006- CHRISTMAS EVE!!! (((((: hahas. had a enjoyable & memorable christmas countdown at vivo. hahas. hmmm.. in the morning, went for church sevice as usual. the drama was awesome & humourous. kinda interesting too. i like the feliz navidad song. && yi sheng brought me a adidas watch for christmas n a web cam in addition. he say the webcam not counted as christmas. LOL!! HA. well, went for Carnival in the afternoon, straight after the service. yupx. hang around w candice n her friends && yi sheng. he is so secertive about his christmas card by not letting me opened it. arghh!!! played some games n ate over thr. we scream while we are on the mini viking. just like what my cousins n i did during the genting trip. lol. HA. daddy cook a marvellous dinner for us. it is so filling. and oh yes, JUNYE so nice hur. delivered the xmas card to me by himself. not bad got future to become a postman. LOL!! went imm w my family before i went home t get some stuff n rushed down t vivo t meet up w yi sheng, qi yin, tien hang, darren && wen hao for the christmas countdown. hahas. took a cab down n i reached thr around 9 plus. qi yin still working so we shopped around for a while. hahas. went to the arcarde. n saw jie ying, joel they all on the way. HA. yi sheng they all keep telling me that darren got a new hair cut because of me. hurhurs! they said that once he hear i'm coming he straight away go for a new hair cut. LOL!! went around w yi sheng t find something t eat while the rest still remain in the arcade. LOL. waited kinda long for 12 plus. we start sending christmas SMS-es at 11.55pm incase it lagged ltr on. LOL. but in the end we didn't even count(tough i keep remained them that there's 3 more mins left till christmas). so interesting right?? i know i know. haha. we only know that it's 12 when ppl start shouting n coming down from the escalator. hurhur. yi sheng sent me home after that. we took a cab. hahas. thr goes my christmas eve. HA!

replies:

to noella: hey GF. merry christmas. hahas. so let's countdown t ur bdae?? lols. hahas.
to love love: received your card already. hahas. i reply give u the replied letter when sch reopen?? hahas. **loves loves***

2006-12-21T17:35:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: christmas mood!! ]

hello. :DD

Christmas is jus a few days ahead. can't wait. i'm real excited & i don't know why. hurhurs. (:
new blog skin. +) spend lots of time doing it. && now it finally done. (:

watched ~~CINDERELLA~~ & ~~THE NIGHT AT THE MESUEM~~ yesterday. 2 movies in a day.
yup..

thanks to yi sheng friends. hurhur && darren wasn't there. yi sheng talking rubbish luh. hahas. LOL!!!!

we watched sneak preview for THE NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM. well, kinda nice luh the show. hahas.

w the dumd dumd n gum gum thingy. LOL!!

for as cinderella was not so nice. i don't like it. LOL!! hahas.

well, that's about ti. short n sweet. LOL!!

2006-12-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

HELLO all!!! (:

kinda in a good mood. yep.

it is raining heavily now. yeah.

oks. due to the bad weather, i could harldy go out these few daes. holy shit.

anw, i quited my job. daddy don't wanna me to work already. there's goes my $1300 pay. T__T

went out w bro today to watch movie. meet one of our cousin wen hao by ouch n so 3 of us ended up watching movie tgt. we watched the holiday. yupx. actually wanted to watched happy feet but wen hao n bro don't wan n they say it is some kind of lame n stupid show. arghh!!

watched 4 movies these month.

~~DEJA VU~~
~~CASINO ROYALE~~
~~ERAGON~~
~~THE HOLIDAY~~

more to go. i wanna watch these movies:

CINDERELLA
NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM
HAPPY FEET
OPEN SEASON

yeah yeah.

&& i haven touched my holiday assignment. =.= ooops.

to all that i hav asked ur address, I WANNA ROB YOUR HOUSE, that the reason why i asked your address for. yeah. LOL!!

goodbye all!!!!!!!
god bless. (:

2006-12-16T16:48:00.000+08:00

alright. back to posting. (:

wheeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

haven been blogging for days. i'll make my blog alive again. (:

11th december 2006 - 13 december 2006 genting trips - i hell lot loves my cousins. we rocks man. wahahahs. we were like mad ppl throughout the trips. especially during the roller coaster rides. we scream when it's not scary at all. we even scream while we are on the merry-go-round. wth. attracted a lot of unwanted attention. lmaorofl. oh yes. i won the screaming chiampionship. yeah. the stranger infront of me during the ride say one. cause i'm seriously damn scared when i was one the gold mine train, so i screamn damn fucking loud, countinously. yeah. end of the rides, he turn to me n say. " wah!! you best man, chiampion. scream so loud!"

we watch midnignt movies everynight. LOL! the first night we watched DEJAVU followed by CASINO ROYALE on the 2nd night. cool. (:

pictures:

one of the dinner at genting(: ;

i've many cousins, i know;

that the reason why i'm getting fatter, oops. ;

always so much love ;

i made this ;

oh cousin!! ;

lesing baby;

nice senery hur? ;

(: ;

us. after all the tiring rides;

well, got more pics actually but it could not be upload. & i don't know why!!!

14th december 2006 SHACKLETON outing today. yep. In the morning, met up w yi sheng. he got soccer training. yeah. his team is so x0x0x0x0x. blah blah blah. no wonder he is the captain. ooops. =x. && i forgotten to buy his breakfast. lmao. hahas. hmmm. after training we intro n so. darren say he in the same church as me. - CHC. n he said he saw me before. i was like, "oh really??" LOL!! yi sheng lied to darren n josh that i'm interested in them n i want their number. than untill today, now, this very moment, darren still though that i interested in him can?? WTF. okies. the training end at around 1pm? than went to yi sheng work place cause he wanted to take off n tagged along for the shackleton outing. LOL!! he lied that he not feeling well so much take off. what n ecuse huh?? and i know his bank account pass. he rushed home after that to change n bath n so. that why i'm late. =x. supposed to meet shckleton at 2pm end up ireached JEC at 3pm. late for 1 hr. amazing!! diaoz. well, atually we wanted to go ice skate but not in group of fours so end up didn't go. we went to watch movie instead. we watch ERAGON. nice show. eh. yar. yi sheng sat beside me n he was so damn noisy can?? keep talking non- stop. hurhurs.

Oliva n i like got bladder problems, we keep going to the toilets cause it's too cold.

yi sheng sent me back home in cab & he's late for work. LOL!!

movie tickets.

15 december 2006 chirstams party! (: oh well, my cell group celebrate in advance. I brought jabet;s present n Pearline brought mine. wahahahas. (: i made one new friend named alex. knew him thru the guitar. LOL!!

i drew the first ballown n yi sheng drewn the 2nd one. HA.

&& he made this for me.

so nice right?? LOL!!

oh well, that's abt it.

GOODBYE!!

2006-12-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: excited?! ]

hello!! i'm kinda in a good mood these few days. yep.

ok. god is a good god. (:
something happend today which i thought it would never happened.

anw, dad brought bro n me a new handphone for chirstmas!! (: cool. i'm getting ipod video soon.

yi sheng happened t buy the same phone and ipod as me. =.=. great mind think alike?? lols.

oh well, i seriously need a good rest. ever since obs till now.. i hardly have a good sleep. yup.

ok. i wanted t post abt npcc camp but too lazy to type all. hurhurs.

day one.

group 5 :D
ice breakin games n so. my grp combined w tys n nizza one. hahas. we played blow wind blow. :DD my group quite united but very crappy n lame. never failed t make me laugh though they always bully me by lettin n sabo me in doing all those forfits. lols. during campfire, tys n i pai seh la. starting cannot light up the hurricane lamp. then me n tys keep down there zi high. luckily group 4, 5, 6 also self motivated high. HA. well, yi sheng come find me after he finished working n passed me the cream for bites n some food - fries n coke form mac. chatted for a while n he ran off cause he tot my sch teacher come. lols. slept on chairs. qp occupied so much space n she didn't do sentry. i sleep talked sia. =x.

day two.

PT in the morning!! wheee!!! my favourite. HA. we got complianed by some ppl saying we are too loud n noisy during PT. kena punishments luh. push up. lazy to explain why. bbq was nice. lj n wei xuan keep bbq-ing for me. qp also. wahahahas. everyone knew i sleep talked. thanks to fizah, zien n yasmin for spreading. movie section was boring cause i'm too tired n my contact lens tear. yar. lalalalalala. blah blah blah.

day three.

area cleaning n so.
group 5 won the best group. (:
well, went home straight. saw jun qi while waiting for cap. lols. his hair is like so.................. eh. yar. waited more than half an hour for the cab.

i only sleep a total of 3 hours during np camp. yar. thx to yi sheng.

oh well.. kinda buzy these few days. yeah. so will blog a proper post some other daes. lols. i'm going overseas next week. yar. try not to miss me too much. LOL!!!

tralalalala.

goodbye!!

2006-11-30T18:35:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: camp mood. (: ]

hello HUMANS!! :DD

wheeee!!! i seriously in camp mood now. tml is npcc camp n i haven packed my stuff. oops. && my bag is so heavy can. i only put in the toiletries, "cosmestics", contact lens stuff.

oks. suppose t meet yi sheng at 6.30am at wm mac & end up i reached thr at 7am n he said he expected that. he brought happy meal for me n he rufsed to tell me the actual price n lied by saying it the auntie see him go guai so treat him. LOL!! he sent me to school n i sent him to bus stop. LOL!! then we talked abt dunearn that mutu. lols.

the toy from happy meal. (:

was late for npcc pre- camp but tys n qp later than me.. wahahahas. lin jing n steffen didn't turned up. yea la. hahas. i'm not in the same group as tys. T.T. sad la. hahas. i'm in the same group as eddy.

eddy!! mus b like me horx. self motivated high!!! hurhurs. LOL!!! (:

actually tot no lunch break but then end up got. LOL. we went t the nearby coffee shop t hav our quick lunch. yea.

yi sheng brought these for me n passed it t me during my lunch break. he refused to tell me how much n lied to me that it's free again. wth. he evem used back the same story line saying that he very guai n so. LOL!!!

he brought all these chocolates

& this coke. wahahahs.

what a crazy guy. =x uh huh.

OK FINE!!! I SERIOUSLY MISSES JERINE HO & NOELLA WEE GEOK ENG, my boyfriend n girlfriend. wahahahahas!!! like so long never see them already la can!!!??!! last see them during dunearnite?? lmaorofl.

i'm so lazy to packed my camping back. help me pack leh. LOL!! OMG!! suddenly i rmb that one of my slippers w love love & dexter t-shirt still w me. diaoz... zzzzzz..

alright. gonna continue to do my emcee speech already.
GOODBYE humans. :D

2006-11-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: hahahas!! ]

HELLO HELLO HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!

jus finished chatting w yi sheng like 30 mins ago.. lols. hahas.

he's going out to watch movie n he's trying to make me jealous. then i tot he go watch alone when he's going out to watch w he's friend. but nvm, i still treat him as those autistic ppl. lols.

he stupid la. don't know what's wrong w him. yesterday or perhaps today morning12 plus msg me go say hi n tell me what he's mutu from dunearn sec n asked me if i remember him. i'm sleeping ok. i really got a shocked la. the tone he say untill so serious. then after that he called n say " shut up la you" n i knew it mus be him. cause we said this to each other during last week church service. lols. i'm seriously influenced by him can. throughout the conversation i keep saying " what's your problem", "irritating like you", " shut up la", " got say you can talk meh".. lols. serious influenced.

at first, he lied to me say what his chirstian name is mutu then i actually believed him ok. dumbass. n he told me a story how n why he wanted to be called mutu. he say what mutu is the toliet cleaner from his work place. then he find the name "mutu" very interesting so he decided to be called mutu. lmao. the we talked abt the roti prata uncle which also called mutu. lols. he asked abt my chi name n when i said "jia min", he tot i say "xia mian" lols. && we both had made up our mind to move on!! yea. (:

he wanted to be called "ah tu". lols. so act cute right. =x.

meeting him tmr for breakfast. yea. meeting him at 6.30am. early right. stupid mutu. LOL!! not going t work for two days due to trial camp n actually camp. eh. yar. lols.

yea. actually, blogged for fun. lmaorofl.

kkx bai. god bless.

2006-11-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

[ mood meter: ?? ]

Greetings to all. :D yawns. i'm so tired.

suddenly this song appears in my mind. this is part of the reason why i'm putting it as my blog song. yar. it has special meaning ok!! lols. (:

oh yar. i got a job. started working already. LOL!! 5 days work. yar.

i'm quite busy n packed w work. cannot really use hp, so don't blame me for the late reply. wahahahahas.

today, suddenly my contact lens got prob. them i keep rubbing. at first tot i lost my lens. then end up it stuck at the eye lid thr, jus like wat happened during nat camp. =.=

going for np camp soon. yar. is like only work for 3 days n i asked for off. wei peng ask me help him find job, if not he will skin me alive. wth. so troublesome leh him. =x. lmaorofl.

quick tag replies

des:heyhey. yupx. my leg is better already. hahas. CAMPBELL soup. arghh!!! i wan more. somedays i would still it from you again. LOL!!

love love: hahas. yep. my leg is better. at least now can walk already. wahahahahs. misses**

pei rong: hahas. don't worry. it's better already. anw, u this few daes got match at KL right?? jiayou wors. :DD

darylene: DAUGHTER!! wahahahs. yep. my leg is much better. hahahs. yep. gossip gossip && russell!! **ahem** the thing we saw him doing. yucks!!

wei qian, jia you for your match.
lynn, jia you for your match.
pei rong, jia you for your match.
whoever who's playing, jia you for your match.

LOL!! this post is random!!!

kaes. bye!!

2006-11-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

hello.

back from OBS trips. i got all kinds of wounds since first day luh. ten thousands times worst than atc. it is a torturing camp. got all kinds of bites on my hands n legs. i don't dare to stratch it much cause i afraid it might end up like the scars on lin jing's hands. think i'm gonna be like him soon, i like keep stractching can.

went see doc liao. hate that doc for giving me injection can??

water is damn precious. pls don't waste it & learnt how to appreciate wht you have now.

i had sun burnts on my head n neck. damn fucking pain. n got a werid kind of thing growing on my leg. disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!

well, not in the same group as love love, tys, victor. =( i'm in S-H-A-C-K-L-E-T-O-N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it consisted of many many kinds of weirdos. members: Haider, siva, jin tao, jia ying, oliva, evon, tommy, mary(rong sheng), Nicholas, dong sheng, donric, lynn, wei li, wei qian, Alif && me of course. ^^

i created Alif n friends. WAHAHAHAHAHAS!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love ali n friends, i love alif n friends, i love ALIF N FRIENDS!!!

well, what maybe bitter to endure maybe sweet to remember. (: those weridos from SHACKLETON are jus so sweet.

Day 1

20 november 2006 self intro n so. we were seperated into groups. i'm in shackleton & clayton is my instructor. from dunearn we have dong sheng, donric, lynn, wei li, wei qian, alif n me. hurhurs. queensway:Tommy, nicholas, mary(rong sheng), evon, oliva. Gim moh: jia ying, siva, jin tao, haider. we have a fun time disturbing tommy n he was like so afraid of us, giving us that kind of expression, " ehs. why talk so much to me as if i know you like that" lols. well, today is more of preparing our lunch packs, food n so. than i ate lots of oreos for lunch & the energy drink is nice. (: we play don't know what "ah bengs", "cow boy" & "red indians" game. so lame ok. think it is called the bombing game. i'm in red indian. =.= after tt went to take group photo. our group was doin absellin,when it started to rain, so we sat in shelter n clayton teached us how to tie different knots. thr was 1 trick tt only clayton knw. n everyone was determined to try it. but none succeed. hahas. it really need a lot of patience. night time, we were pitchin tents n cookin in the rain. we seperated our jobs into 2. some of us go cook while the remaining go pitch tents. the dinner that we had for today is totally disgusted. we had survival cooking n the cook rice = uncooked rice. so hard like eating rocks. yucks. it was raining n we slept in tents instead. good life sia. but we wates our effort on pitching the tents. nicholas also from npcc n he's cousin is my junior. lols. the world is small man. lols. & oh yes. the tents is so much different from the one used in atc. lmaorofl. jia ying suddenly talked to me in the middle of the night n i almost got scared to death. *faint** my blister from the dunearnite's ushering brust. yucks. this day i'm dying to go home. serious.

Day 2

21 november 2006 KAYAKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woke up around 5am in the morning. get ready n so. got ppl wake up as early as 4 plus can. n you know what, they go packed their stuff. lols. so kuku luh. we had some briefing n we set off to kaya from camp 2 to camp 1. paired up w wei qian at first but clayton seperated us in the middle of the sea as he said that star 1 ppl cannot paired up tgt. we exchange w tommy n wei li cause they kaya too slow. wth. changed in the middle of the sea. paired up w tommy. a bit suay luh. he like nv use strenth to kaya n i got blisters all over my fingers when we reached our destination. the rescue drills w alif n jia ying was like crappy. anyhow capsized n so. while playing some standing game, nicholas/mary kaya capsized n tommy/mine followed. lols. abt 4 hrs time we reached camp 1. had a quick clean up. washed our life's n had our lunch. after that, went to do absellin n rock climblin. clay asked us about our target, & mine was after the red line which is the third squ. hahas. guess what?? i managed t reached the top which is so damn surprising cause i got phobia of height. lynn motivated me w this phrase" jus touch the brown one" when thr no brown rock. hurhurs. then i had a very hard time t come dwn n blah blah blah. this OBS got a lot of SHENGs. then rong sheng decided to name himself "mary" t be more OUTSTANDING than the rest. wahahahas. (: this is how he got the name mary. && he keep telling me that he got a lot of lamb. LOL!!

Day 3

22 november 2006 woke up early in the mornin, went t row boat. briefing n safet precautions first, as usual. we row fm camp 1 t camp 3. our group went w barbie doll. aiyah, is bakuta? we row the boat tgt. we were all seperated into four groups. ours was da 1st to set of, but we were very slow in terms of rowing the speed. our boat was called alif & frens. i crated it. wahahas. cause the insturctor asked what the boat name then i any how say it's called alif n friends cause i can't think of any better names. lmao. we were always the last few, so we decided t row it slowly n enjoyed the senery ard pulau ubin. n we started to play i spied. we had our lunch in the middle of the ocean during the 45 mins break. we opened a packet of biscuts so tt all could it while rowing the boat. in the end alif threw it into the sea caused the whole picket of biscuts dropped into the sea n we countined rowing n played i spied. hahas. && oh yes. i'm the captain througout. good life for me again. nobody want t let me paddle. they said what "my hands got blister" & what" i got no strength" hello!! i'm a strong girl ok?! i paddle for like 5 times or less?? lols. after tt it started to rain heavily. n thr was even thunder. it's a storm. hurhurs. lols. n everyone started to paddle v v fast. i tricked them there's only 1km left when theres lik 100km left. since they can't see what behind them, only the captain know the truth. so they mus trust what i said. this it called motivate leh. lols. n it was v v fun. nichlolas n i keep saying our prayers, prayed to god to land us safety n so.. we even talked abt npcc stuff n 7 A*. lmao. cause as you see, it was rainin heavily n thr was thunder. when i was gettin off. i step onto da rock n fell into da dirty n full of algae water. my leg is stuck. it was damn digustin la. when the tide was low, the 4 boats were stuck in the muddy, digusting algae n full of stones ground. so everyone had t help carried the boat. n it was v heavy. when the rain was lighter, we started t row again. after rowin fer hours, we finally managed to reached. n everytime when i say alif n friends, everyone in our boat started to chiong. so amazing hur. things are really getting so amazing now a days. then we were like saying we can pulished a book called " alif n friends" w a lot of chapters in it so we can earned money. lols. we were da 1st t park our boat. hahas. unfortunately,we're unable to bath. disgustin right?? n we had to walked bout 5-10 mins t the toilet. like strolling in park sia. we hav not enough food t eat during dinner times. cause siva sick then went home w all the food in her bag pack. hurhurs. lols. get t knw adrain, ressa, shao xiong?? ressa did something **ahem** *ahem** n i saw it. yucks. this is the day when shackleton started t talk alot n bond tgt. wahahahahas. sentry duties was kinda fun jus that we need to run after dogs. lols.

Day 4

23 november 2006 in the mornin,we started to packed our bag for hiking. lols. n the bag was freaking heavy. we had t play a game t see which grp go first. n we lost. so da other group went first. but ltr,we catched up, though we still lost t them in the end. thr was 5 check points. when we found da 1st chech point, it started t rained. yar, rained again. everyone was v v exhausted. hahas. findin da check point isn't easy as they were hidden by trees n so. sand flies, mosquitoes, butterflies jus love me too much man. they are like so attracted t us, every whr we g they jus followed. hahas. n we totally hate them. we reached da 4th check point, n we played the log game. when everyone had to hold hand n walked on it. some pple were "blinded" by the island. dongsheng n wei qian were muted. and i'm left t lead the way. after tt we play the stone game. the game is called" whose fault is it??" LOL!! it was fun but difficult. everyone is t hold a stone w their left hand, stand in cirlcle n throw it t the person beside. n we had to catch it 3 times in a row. after 15 mins, we did it! =) after much much much of walkin,we managed to reach the campsite. i'm totally injured by than. i could not walked. had one of the best dinner. we cook lotsa instant noodles. i cried due t the sharp pain n nicholas , wei qian, mary n lynn keep confront me. hahas. clayton sir sent me t the nearest medical centre while the rest went t store n tel ghost stories. sad luh, i missed it. oh the way t the medical centre, clayton keep blaming say i caused him all these trouble n so. in a joking tone of course. i suddenly opened the store door when i reached n everyone got a shocked. this proved tt theyare focusing on the ghost stories. that good. lols. i leap all the way t the campsite luh. so kuku. i know.

Day 5

24 november 2006 for all good things would eventually come to an end. the camp finally came t an end. area cleaning!!!!! we hav t mak sure all the things were thr, or else we had to pay. so alif went around n cope ppl things. it was v funny. & is lik alif so darin la. he do it so open. n n also clay helped us alot. jus love him too too much. last dae was kinda sad. cos we had to be apart le. after 5daes,we started to bond tgt n now we had t go seperate ways le. why is this happening?? lols. hopefully still keep in contact??

took some pics.

Gonna missed this store badly.

Alif n friends.

Alif n friends again.

again, Alif n friends.

the precious rock while playing "whose fault is it?" this rock motivate me when i was abt t faint n gave up. LOL!!

don't wanna upload the pic taken on the first days cause it look so kuku. argh!!!!

gonna missed alif though we in the same sch. gonna missed his noise cause he would usually called my name in the middle of the night.

gonna missed wei qian & lynn too. my tent mates. gossip gossips. (:

gonna missed nicholas n mary too. they never failed t make me laugh my heart out.

gonna missed evon, oliva, tommy, haider!!!!!

ALIF 'N' FRIENDS. i love you. wo ai ni. wahahahahahahas.

CLAYTON, i'll miss you. best instructor tt i would nv forget. thx for all your advice, kindness n so. i've learnt a lot from you. if coincidence, we shall meet again.

i regret throwing the "aglae" shoe. is like throwing away my experiences. sad luh. regret regret.

what maybe bitter maybe sweet to remember.

once again, w much loves, I LOVE ALIF N FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god bless all.

2006-11-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

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hello!!!!!!!!!

the blisters is so damn pain. my ankle, toes has it. i could not wear shoes. it hurts. how t go OBS??? lols.

just finished packing my stuff. tmr going OBS. try not to miss me too much. (: lols. gonna see love love tmr. just saw her yesterday n still miss her so much. wahahahas. (: i anyhow packed my bag. think will forget to bring something but i can't rmb for now. LOL! serious stm. lols.

went church in the morning n fully agreed w what paster kong had said. throughout the service i was like ya, ya, ya n ya. (:

Faith is a kind of knowing. We don't have to prove because we know. Faith is stepping out, not wishing and hoping. Whatever we think we are, we will be. We live in the direction of our self- image. If we want to be a successful person, you must know what you have. Be a victor, not victims. Don't wait for things to happened, go create them. It is not going to happened untill you stepped out and do something. And when we moved forward, we become stronger, larger n bigger.

therefore, knowing by faith, i will not be stepped down by sin, i will move forward. Amen.

&& oh yes. benjamin n gabriel in the same church as me but different cell group. saw them today. suay right? =x. whahahahas. stuipd yi sheng keep suaning me say what i short. as if he very tall like that. then still say what i always " um chio". laughing is good for health. lols.

17 november 2006 dunearnite!! what a day man. report at 5pm jus to had our dinner. didn't eat much. cause i don't like. i find it gross. walked around n slacked inside prefects' room. tell zz n sieg to come early n tell them need to be seated by 6.30pm. then end up both of them came excatly at 6.30pm. i let them sit w my shi fu. ya. then shi fu keep suanning me non stop. wtf. then he said what i don't even hav the basic of suaning skills. no wounder always kana suan by ppl. =.= sieg go say i should asked zz to be my shi fu instead. lols. didn't do duty w love love ): cause i doing ushering in the hall. sieg go book a place for me to sit. asked mr rani for his permission whether ushers can sit down n he said can. Fancy drills n cheer leading. **three cheers three cheers** woah. i love it esp fancy drills. a bit bias cause NPCC inside. lmao. (: stayed backed to cleaned up after that. sieg n zz waited for me.. lols. went mac w archanna, vic, zz, sieg after dunearnite. archanna go pronounced sieg named as sian n pronounced zz name as lion. she heard wrongly when they said their names. lmao. then i go make fun of sieg name. i keep calling him sian now he keep calling me berber. hurhur. wth. on the way home saw joel. he just now sent love love home. so sweet arh. wahahahas. reach home at around 11 plus.

18 november 2006 Dunearnite again! today is for alumni. one tickets were sold for $50 n around 610 peoples turned up. school earned lots of $$$$$. hurhurs. got lots of ex- dunearnite from 30 years ago also came back. while ushering, they go tell me" wo shi 30 nian qian de" lols. lin jing mummy also come back. lols. i was like hopping, jumping like some kind of idiots cause the blisters are damn fucking pain la. today ushers can go hom early. no need to clean up. wheeee.. so cool. i went home straight cause my blisters too pain then cannot go out. the food provided were much better than yesterday. reached home around 8 plus. lalalalalala. tatatatatata. then *drop dead* too tired. lols.

quick tag replies

ZH: hurhurs. LOL. say not coming for dunearnite end up comin. lmao.
qiupeng: with much LOVES** LOL!!
wenyan: hurhurs. remeberance day!!! AHhahahahs!! LOL!!
love love: Gonna see you tmr!!!

cause everything is meant to be ok. (:

kkx. should post pics in the future. w victor too. lols. good bye!!